Hmm ... Damn ~~~

Hello again ... Well seeing this as me updating my blog ... anyone who has been following my sad pathetic excuse of a life would very much know something big or bad must had happened AGAIN ... yes AGAIN and i cannot emphasize more ...
Whats wrong this time ? Well like i said in my last entry ... My life is in a total mess ... and thankz to whosoever planning my life ... THANK U really ... U couldn't make it worse could u ... First it was her ... so fine ... if its the case that i my loving her will only end up in more misery for her... I'll leave ... And seriously thanks ... she cared enough to think for me ... that part i appreciated ... But at a time when i've decided to give up ?
Now ... WHY muz u make it such tt i come across and join OB ... only to earn enough respect and acknowledgement only to eventually know that i cannot go for the goal of all these training ...
Yes .... again i must say i truely muz thank u for giving tonnes of caring friends who remains but as just friends ... friends who from where i view have a nice life ... at least that much better than mine ... N i suppose this is all to CHEER me up ? Compensate for my other misfortunes ?
True ... as compared to many others my life is fine ... but WHAT THE FUCK is it lor ... material needs are covered above average ... But NO FAMILY LIFE ... Love yes i know i'm getting a fair share but i'm not getting it the way i want it ... Love doesn't count unless one can FEEL it strongly enough ...