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Hey there ! =) Sorry ... life has been bz =( Alot of adaptation to do and not much time to do just that ... Well ... Got my IS class to make some noise, broke the ice a little ... Got my a CCA more or less i think ... OB(Outward Bounders) ... the idea of it wasn't too appealing but i guess its the closest it gets to good ol' Npcc training at Ngee Ann ... Not that i love Npcc tt much but just that the familarity just seems to appeal to me ... for now at least ... Got to know quite a number of new people over the week ... I guess this will go on for awhile more ... poly life is something i need to adapt to ... the idea of having so many ppl i don't know ard is just disturbing ... then again the "absurbity" (if such a word even exist) of reasons to allow one to know ppl is confusing too ... you can have every reason to know someone but u may not get to know him/her ... however, on the other hand with the most absurb of reasons one may actually get to know someone more easily ... then again it may be the other way ard sometimes ... Academically ... poly is also very different as life gets on ... pace of time seems to be very fast where as pace of learning doesn't seem to take its evolution in myself ... =(
Received a call from an old friend of mine a few days back ... she was complaining abt her life and all ... then after being consoled somehow she led me to straying into talking abt my relationship life and haiz ... thinking back ... I started to feel the pain once more ... of missing that special someone so dearly that i started to feel every heartbeat by its components once more ... every time blood drains from the heart yet nv seems to fully fill back when blood pumps back in ... =( Oh angel ... why ... why does it have to be like this ... being a little more friendly ... a little less foreign ... a tact more warm ... just to an old friend ... thats all i ask ... but why ... even that little request of familarity for sake of old times you will not grant me ?

1F05 Rulez ...

Hello pplz ... Nice day ... simple practical and then there was early lunch cos some funny guy came and obstructed Mrs Tang's tuitorial which had to be moved to a later slot on friday ... Anywayz ... so lunch was good ... 2 bucks for a good meal @ SIM food court much better than anything from canteen 4 which we are supposedly confined to for lunch ... -_-" Moving on ... There was then the registration with the ambassadors for an entry interview ... Wish me luck ppl =) Then came the highlight of the day !!! HAHA !!! Class Activity Day ... 1F05 or BioHazard (as i hope the class would agree to for a classname) which is my class appears to be the only class with such an event so far =) and to my surprize the event was an immediate hit with nearly 75% attendance ... a 14/20 (which for class events of a new class which is like 1½week old is indeed a very good statistic) I do hope this would carry on and the class would thrive as the best there is at Ngee Ann for as long as it exist =) Thankz pplz !
Getting on to my life ... as you can see today clearly cheered me up from the past week of turmoil ... with all the crap abt my laptop ... my ex gf ... and other funny stuff which didn't turn on very funny on me emotionally ... today was indeed a big relief ... Hoping things would run on smoothly from here on in ... though tml itself is a bad enough thought ... I promise i'll TRY to interact with the IS class ... do note i emphazied on the word "TRY"... OKie Time for bed Good Nite World ... Swt Dreams

Stupid Laptop !!!

Arghz having problem with my laptop today ... it doesn't seems to be working ... and ARgZh ... Nv seen this porblem before HOW TO RECTIFY ? Oh well ... On the bright side tml is 05 activity day ... only managed to book 1 pathetic court for 1 hr ... lame ... Well see what we can do abt it tml ... Hmm ... class is coming through more and more ... but then ... i have this weird feeling its gonna take more than what we've done to work this class into top shape academic and "siao on" unity ... In anycase we've got a classname "BIOHAZARD" if everyone agrees to it =P anywayz ... Just got a call from YiXin asking me to go for some funny event at chinatown ... wondering if i should attend it ...
OH well ... Take care ppl ... I thought i could move on ... but moving on things get very very complicated ... Maybe i should just stick to being sad over that matter ... at least the rest of the worldly matters seems of alot less concern to me when i'm in tt mode ...

Oh no ... the thought ... the horror ... Why ? Why ! Why !?!?!?!

Ah just happened to log on ... checked out her journal and guess wad ... Firstly i'm happy ... I truely am that she is getting on fine with life and everything seems to be flowing well for her socially though i must say ... something just isn't right from everything i've read heard or felt of late ... she has been giving me the feeling something is going really wrong ... anywayz ... the horror of it all is the thought tt she might be leaving for Tasamania ... and I've NOT BEEN INFORMED ... Haiz ... I really wonder how much i mean to her or for tt matter anyone nowadays ... Well ... talking abt her ... I remember it was one of her dream to be a Marine Biologist or at least study Marine Biology at Tasamania ... so on one hand i should be happy for her ... on the other ... i don't really want to lose her ... as far as i'm concerned i've already lost most of her ... if she is to leave ... i'd probably lose everything ... even my chances of seeing her ever again ... Haiz ... why me ? why ... why does all these happen to me ... why did i have to fall for her ... why didn't i fall for any other gal ... those are some qnts i always look into but nv find a real answer ... everything is always so ambiguous ... It all feels so right with her ard ... without her ... suddenly everything seems so plain ... maybe i've lost myself falling so deeply ... maybe i've became complacent taking her love to be granted ... maybe i deserve losing her ... for not being nice enough ... for not being caring enough ... haiz ... I guess i'll nv find out ... I can only pray that she would remember me and the time we had together ... remember enough to bother thinking abt me once in awhile ... to actually miss me ... cos i know i always do ... Well ... here wishing her all the best in whichever pursuit she may have locally or abroad ...

Hulk Angry !!!

Went to watch hulk with an old friend ... Graphics were good but i guess the concept of potraying hulk as a superhero ... basically the story emphasize more or less too much on hulk being a freak accident and rage triggered ... To me ... I think its makes Hulk look like an overgrown whinner ... Haiz ... sad ... Oh well don't know wad else to share today ... Take care pplz ...

Anyone Wanna Watch Full-Throttle ?

YoZ Yoz ... Okie ... So today is lecture day ... whole day of lecture and well ... Mr. Changs OBC is as expected lame and nice =P Though there are some new things and some old things i want to revise ... Mrs Tang was entertaining enough to keep me awake =P But WHY MUZ CALL ME WHEN THE CLASS IS LATE ... SO MANY PPL DON"T CALL CALL ME ... BIASED ONE !!! haha Then there was the Ms Suja Physio Lectures which practically put me to sleep literally ... ARghz ... How ? Liddat sure die lor ... So there ... That was contact time for school today ... Then parts of 1F05 went for revision at the library ... er ... not very efficient but i guess nothing much to revise on either =P Had fun anywayz so who cares ... Oh yar ... saw quite a number of ppl today at school ... Miao Yuan on the way to tuitorial ... Linda at the library and yesh met my pet squirel "ger ger" at the library too =P and while at canteen one for "high tea" where we met Frank just as we were talking abt missing him ... haha ... talk abt coincidences -_-"
Mr. Chang enlightened us about community service, travelling and touring ... So he was talking abt head hunter tribes and the school's community learning trips to such tribes to help out ... I'm pretty interested ... though mainly the trip consist of experiencing simple laid back lifestyles and building community halls for such villages ... His description of previous trips were no where near boring ... infact I'm DYING to go for the trip haha =)
Getting late ... I think i'm hitting the sacks soon ... so Nitez ppl ... swt dreams and take care

IS Day ... I Don't Like it :(

IS DAY (Interdisciplinary Studies Day) ... Today is dedicated to my complusory IS modules mainly WAA (Writting Academic Applications) and CATS (Creativity And Thinking Skills) ... Mr Tan of CATS is a nice guy but the class well ... tts another case ... So he is abit into cold jokes which only he laughs at most of the time -_-" ... Mr Gill is on MC (Medical Leave) so there is this Mrs Yap taking his classes ... Mr Gill is well known at my school to be widely loved ... Mrs Yap on the other hand is unheard of but i can tell she was nv well liked for some reasons ... The class well ... IS class is definately not getting anywhere fast ... too quiet ... too reserved ... I dare not approach anyone ... everyone is just too er ... unapporachable ... Glad tt lunch was fine as i met up with my class =) Heng Ar ! HaHa ... Still 1F05 better ... =D
Now for more sentimental things ... Just read the journal of someone who remains important to me and someone i will always keep close to heart ... She briefly touched on the common saying that beauty is but skin deep ... In her journal she brought out two very different views in two very simple poems ... on one hand ... she voiced that sometimes beauty is but skin deep practically wad more can one ask for ? ... on the other ... she also considered the more spiritual side of the phrase and saw it from the fact tt there is inner beauty in ones soul as well ... I was thinking ... Like who is perfect ? How does one define perfectness ? My conclusion for now ... No one is perfect until you know them and accept them for who and what they are ... phyiscally and spiritually ...
Chew on those thoughts for now ... I'm leaving for bed ... wonder how long good class relationship is gonna last ... i have a sick feeling it ain't gonna last long ... but i'm sure i want to enjoy it while it last ... sadly good things nv last long =( Especially for me ... Good things always come to an end and on very ambiguous notes as well ... Guess i should be glad they don't end on sad notes ...

And I thought I Was Lame ...

Okie ... Day 2 at Ngee Ann ... Got to know more of my classmates but mostly the gals ... amazingly the gals seem more willing to make friends then the guys ... sheez ... Anywayz ... Today met my OBC (Organic Biological Chemistry) lecturer and man is he lame ... I've nothing to say ... his lameness way exceeds tt of mine ... haha ...
Well ... Life goes on for those who had been following which i don't really think are many ... OH yeah ... Mag Thankz for following and giving me ur feed back =) Thats abt it for today take care and i'll be updating soon ...

Youth day ? Ha ...

Hello Pplz ... Day one at sch ... ON YOUTH DAY !!! Wah Kao ... Anyways at least day one was good ... Got to know many ppl for the most absurb reasons ... ppl clicked fast enough ... things worked out quite well ... Tml meeting up my class before class just to get to class haha =P Hmm... IT & Programming is the first lesson ... but none of them wanna bring laptops ... so haiz ... hope things turn out well tml =P To my new class *cheers* and to those i already know but hadn't had time to look up at ngee ann i'd find u guys soon =)
OKie ... Gotta go slp ... lessons at 8 again !!! Oh and one more thing need to decide on a CCA FAST !!!

School Starts Once More

HeY hEy Pplz ... So Sch Starts tml ... Ah yes the dreaded sch term ... somehow i'm thankful schs back ... and i think i know why ... first of all ... Need to grind tt brain back into working condition ... less slacking more facts ... Secondly ... Money keeps flowing one way ... which happens to be OUT ... so with sch back in session ... time i have to myself or for my friends naturally decreases ... which comes down to YES less SPENDING and more SAVINGS ... i hope ... hehe ... Then with the lag of time to go ard I get less time to think too much ... which means i do have to feel sorry for myself or guilty for wad has happened ... (which i don't really know why i should but i just have tt kinda feeling) ... And one last one to talk abt would be time at sch ... new friends ... old friends ... new sch ... yeah tt sorta thingy ... sure feels good =P
Hmm today was a good day ... went out with Flash on our first outing organized by urs truely ... made in a rush and well everything didn't go as planned but somehow we pull through and i guess its more than i can ask for ... Thankz to all the Flash-ers who made the effort to come down and support the event and i promise the nxt would be a much better one ... hope u guys and gals had fun =)
gtg slp now ... tata

Welcome ME Back =)

YoZ yOz YoZ ... Back from Camp and ready to kick ass again =) Just got back from camp feeling Really Siao ... Hadn't had so much fun or let myself just flow for a long time liao ... LSCT FOC was Great ... Flash (My Orientation Grp) was great =) Ah yesh ... I love the feel =)
I feel Good *arh* I feel SO GOOD *arh* Oh i FEel So, Oh I FEEL So, OH I FEEL SO GOOD *arh*arh*arh* =P
Camp was G-R-E-A-T, GREAT ! Flash was Good ... But most of all LSCT ROCKS !!! So life restarts for me ... About time i keep the past behind me move on with my life =) Hope life gets better ... Flash I WILL be spending quality time with u guys and gals ... U|td Inc. I hadn't forgot abt you lot ... Tock Seng U better NOT even think abt me forgetting all those great times at OBS , Snoopy ... I love u guys so if i can i'll find a way to regrp and get back to u ppl too ... Everyone else I'll always remember u ppl so just gimme a call when u ppl can ...
To the ONE gal i so love ... I will NEVER forget or give you up no matter how u may choose to act ... So wad if the world changes ... as much as i may change, my love for u shall nv fade ... I swear my life upon tt statement =)