Reloaded

Hello People~
This whole apologising about my taking forever to update blogs are getting a little too frequent ;p Anywayz ... Well Exams are over ... Holidays are well into its primetime ... Awaiting for results now ... Fencing camp and a couple of chalets had made their mark ... What remains would be SALT course and if it even holds up Venturejuana.
This project is all ready to fire off with a blazing start ... Just lacks 1 major component ... Participants ... Bloody secondary schools have no honour , ask for slots and ends up none of them complies and even worse some just simply withdraw ... haiz .... God Bless the project ... I only fear for the worse ... sigh ....
Plenty on my mind these days ...
converted on the 1st of october ... been attending services at trinity christian center ... Got to know quite alot of people and things ... wonder if i've made the right choice ... everyone there is so devoted ... Me ? I'm just not the devoted sorta guy ... not in case of a religion that is ...
Venturejuana in distress ... the commitee is holding up alright but as much as each of us keep a smile through out meeting we all know deep down inside it hurts to see our project fail ... If only we can find the 26 participants by friday ... If only ...
Maths is coming up again nxt sem ... wonder how well i'll hold up against that ...
I've assume role of president for Ngee Ann's NAPFA Society ... but great powers comes with great responsibilities ... now i know what that means ... alot of work to be done ... alot of decisions to be made ... alot of people to please ... alot of everything i shouldn't had taken too lightly ...
Oh yar ... just to side track something nice had happened met my "daughter" at church yesterday ... pretty surprized but haha always good to see familiar faces yar :P
Back to my woes ... Fencing Novices are coming up ... i know i should be spending time training but well sometimes just feel too lazy ... arghz ... hate myself ... MUST train !!!
Still fed up with the whole get a girlfriend thing ... Don't know what to do abt it now ... Sat down to think abt it the other day ... Decided i won't have a relationship which isn't gonna last ... But still i find myself being very nice to her ... *shrugs* wonder if she even bothers ...
Joyce is coming back =) Thats something to look forward to ... haven't seen her for say ... a year or so now ... wonder how much shes changed ... had a nice chat over the phone the other day ... sounded every bit like her ... =) Feeling pretty bad for some things i did ... Should try to surpress my emotions more ...
Guess i'm the freaking emotional kinda guy ... I can hold emotions pretty well ... but i guesss as much as i can ... my emotions are just sometimes too strong for me to hold down ...
Hmm looking forward to SALT ... hoping Gunang Panti will give me a good chance to retreat to nature and hopefully in its course rejuvanate me !
Gonna see Ivan and Kenny off to South Africa today ... so wanted to go for that course ... but money has proven yet again to be a root problem ... I'm not poor ... but i'm not rich .... I suppose like my day say ... this is the worse position to be in ... No ones gonna take pity on you ... Yet envy is gonna be on ur mind all the time coz you haven't suffered enough to understand what is truely being poor ...

Quote of the day : "If the lord brings U to it ... He'll Bring u Through it" --- Anomynous
Note : Hope that is true ...