Basic Communications With Your Soul ~

Good Afternoon ~ I'm sitting in office doing nothing once again ... so heres a little update and some thoughts i had of recent ... rememeber its all my opinions ... enjoy ~
Life I guess is never an easy road ... closing to 2mths 1 wk of attachment with CMM has given light to many misconceptions and previous believes for me (with regards to life ... society ... laboratories and people)
I guess working is never meant to be something fun ... but as the saying goes " how much fun you have depends very much on how much fun you want to have "...
In the reseach environment, fun is not a tangible value (then again ... since when was it tangible) ... So I guess passion is the key to sustaining the will to come to work and go through the same crap everyday =) However passion isn't something that comes at will ... which brings me to ponder if I will eventually go into the line of research ... Will Dr.Simon Soh become a dream that never becomes reality ? only time will tell ...
To me the research life meant exciting discoveries and endless mind boggling puzzles to be sloved with people working together to make it all happen in an intensive environment with uncountable array of chemicals ... Well the fact is ... I'm not all that wrong ... arrays of chemical yes ... just not really in use all the time ... intensive environment ... er ... not really ... people working together ... perhaps just a few ... in fact looking on the bright side lab isn't all that serious a place to be ... yet the endless repetition of the same protocol isn't exactly what i was looking for ...
Well enough abt labs and work ... i guess not many out there (even biologist in trg) may end up working in labs ... so moving on ...
In the course of time between now and when i first left sch for attachment ... I've come to realise that some habits that one may assume people grow out of may actually linger late into their lives if not attended to ... people in their 20s with no social skill .... people reaching their 30s with no goal in life ... people in their 30s with a general distaste for life & people ... I don't know ... maybe somewhere in there life they lost sight of their goals ... maybe somewhere along the path they forgot that their roots ... or maybe ... just maybe they sank into depression and gave up but no one ever came along to pick them up ...
In my opinion these people really need some help ... nothing too special ... perhaps from family ... a friend that cares ... if not there is always God ...
I can go blabber on and on ... for the rest of the day ... but from 11 20 in the morning ... I've been trying to post this entry till now ... which is abt 11 20 at nite ... so I shall type more another day ... For now my friends =) More for all to ponder on ...

Quote of the day:
"When in high spirits ... Seize the day ~ live it for what it is worth ... Yet keep in sight thy goal and forget not thy roots ...
When downcast by moods ... Dispair not & live for the better tomorrow ~For the goal is nearer with each passing moment ~ Take comfort that from thy roots strength is free to be drawn ... "
---Theorem of Le FoX

The Friendly Community ~

Well today has been interesting ... Went out for a walk ard town with shahid and henry ~ Very very fruitful day indeed ... Got myself a new polo tee but still no berms/pants ...
But ~ First we met a really old friend koon mean (jun min) - president of MFSC when I was in sec 1 ... Then met Terry and Zhi Hui (wonder if they're dating) ... Then there is KaiXiang and later met Wei Ming (my NCO when i was in sec 1) ... followed by Veronica (old friend from CISCO) ... Finally ... there met Casper ~ haha how many people can u meet in a day !!!
Well ~ after we concluded that we had enough walking for a day we retired to karim - the usual chill out mama shop for teh tarik and chup chai ~ haha like thats a new idea yar ? healthier choice of finger food ~
Damn boring post rite ? HaHa ... I guess I shouldn't really be sad and disappointed with my life ... given the amt of friends i have ... But ~ being only human I'll want more ...
Ever noticed that the one who is always there for people don't really have that many people who is always there for him when he is in need ? I guess if u're the one always there for someone or everyone u'd probably notice haha ~ I'm not complaining that there isn't enough people ard for me ... neither am i saying that I'm such a nice guy that I'm always ard for people ... but just wondering why people can become so devoted to give to certain people but not others and yet those on the receiving end may be more interested in pouring their love and their concerns elsewhere ? For someone else ?
The most conventional answer : Humans are objective and goal oriented creatures (yes everyone ... like it or not) ... We're designed in such that we will do what we deem beneficial to ourselves. Its a matter of how one defines beneficial ... It may not be a bad thing ... yet it can be a terrible thing ...
The true answer ? There is none ... For that only God knows ... What we can do is to ask ourselves ... the 5 wives and 1 husband technique ... Why? Where? When? What? Who? How ? ... I think this is the one technique MOE has decided everyone should know and I had nothing to argue abt ... it works for everyone for alot of things ... well just a little thought to chew on ~