Updated at long last =P

Well Well ~ either been freaking bz or freaking bored ... Here are some highlights of my life in the past month or so ...
Yet another retreat with shahid ... clayton but this time without joel instead we've got henry ... Ubin is massively changing rapidly ... I do hope the goverment will not destroy this small island paradise that gives the slightest of kumpung life left in singapore .... It holds many memories for many people ... The old ... the young ... couples ... friends ... cadets ... adventurers ... kumpungers ... Alot ... Well the trip was no lost met some TAS people in trg not really very friendly but i guess they're just in trg ... Met some guys from a SFC ( Singapore Flying College) ... now they were very friendly ! asked for cigarettes -_-" Well Well ... cept a little trouble from some dogs apart from that we had fun =)
LSCT Freshmen Orientation Camp =) Once again living the high life of a GL ? haha Not exactly ... as an SGL at camp ... We've became more of a support and advice committee rather than taking up the challenge running and executing in the lime lights ... Don't get me wrong ... it has it fun part ... and we're still running and executing the camp just at a different level and outside the limelights most of the time ... Not I mind ... but it would had been nicer if i've got to know some of the freshies =\ But nonetheless I wasn't really in the top of mood myself ... and i did get to know a couple of the GLs better so no reason complains i guess ...
Apart from that got to know some of the AGLs and even some of my fellow SGLs better ... Went for a little trip overnight at palawan beach completed with our very own campfire ! Haven't had any kinda campfire since ... maybe the ubin retreat with joel ... Had our small adventure of a night walk ... not very exciting ... but I guess everyone is just tired ...
I guess that sums up the happier times ... Work is getting routine ... I've been out alot ... but somehow a certain part of me is just empty ... unfilled out ... lack of a little something ... I don't know what is wrong with me ... Been searching myself for awhile ... looking for a reason of my being ... thinking abt problems left unsolved for ages ... I've found some answers and more questions wonder if this whole idea is worth it ... Been freaking moody and i've no one to talk to ... simply becoz there is nothing i can say ! arghz ~

News Flash : Coloured Cow Phenomena

News Flash !
*news music plays*
Massive amounts of coloured cows have been sighted at a number of empty fields around the Island country of Singapore ! Why have they appeared ? Who is responsible for this ? What is the meaning of this ? When did they appear ? How did they get there ?
Investigators are now looking into the case ~ they've rejected comments to the press hence far ...
Reporting live ~ Simon Soh ~
Back to you at the studio ~
*news music plays*

Tune in for more report on the cow news tml ~
Local news on Ngee Ann Poly ... The School of Life Science Director has been offically promoted to Senior Director of Ngee Ann Poly ... Still holding the post of Director of LSCT ~ Dr. Sushila Chang now runs not only LSCT but also HSN (School of Health Sciences: Nursing) which is directed by Dr.Phang Chiew Hun ~ Congrates to both ~

Thank you for tuning in to Interesting News @ The Den ~
Good Night Sweet Dreams~

Finding the Balance : Work & Life ~

Juggling time is perhaps the one skill that is most emphasized but least mastered of arts throughout one's school life as a student ~ How often does one hear the phrase "You have to learn to juggle your time for school work, CCA and yourself" ?
Often have I heard and read from comments of teachers on students, so and so has good time management juggling both academics and CCA ... That alone seems good enough for the teachers/mentors of schools ... Yet ~ how often do we neglect the fact that Balance is not just work ~ There is also Life to worry abt ~ afterall Life is what we're living ... work is what we do to sustain it based on society requirements ...
Being on attachment one learns that in an enviroment of work there are limitations social life ~ People pays you to work for a certain number of hours a week and that is something you're compelled to do ~ Unlike school ... you don't get to just sit ard and listen ~ At work one has to think more often than one receives instructions ... Another difference is ~ the learning process very experiential based ~
I think I might had side tracked too much ~ back to the topic ... the working life has much limitations to social life ~ Very often ~ social life is highly compromised for those who makes no efforts to maintain it ~ Then again ... it is very tiring to juggle between the two to reach the Balance ... For myself ... it has very much been a chore and I'm only experiencing working life on a minimal level ~ God help me ~ Gotta learn to adapt to it ~ Adding to that there are emotional attachments to friends that one takes very much granted in school ... the day to day people you see ... you play with ... you laugh with ... One just don't see them often anymore ~
=) Alot of getting used to after a little reflection on a week's work ~
Till nxt time ~ I leave one and all to ponder over the theme of Balance of Work and Life ~

Call Me DrosophilaMan~

Hello People ~
Day 3 starting to settle into CMM ~ Getting to know more new people and those I already know are getting friendlier ( don't get me wrong ~ they are already friendly people ~ Just getting more familiar thats all... )
Been working with flies since day 1 ... Being someone who never liked anything more than 4 legs I guess this is a BIG thing ~ Working 3 days with flies ... larvae and pupae ~ This week is generally selection for breeding and taking care of those pesky lil' things ~ Next week I'll be going on a KILLING spree as we move into the disection and screening phase ~
Got my temp card ~ so NO MORE PINK LANYARD ~
Tml shall go ard biopolis and enjoy a little stroll ard =) EXPLORATION ~
Btw a little note on today's title ~ the flies i'm working with are Drosophila Flies (or more commonly known as the fruit flies ~ you can find them lingering ard your bunch of ripe bananas and garbage bags) ... so the rest I'll leave it to your imaginations =p
Quote of the day: "There is NOTHING to Fear But Fear itself ~"---Theorem of LeFoX (quoted from Sir Winston Churchill)

Day 1 Attachment ~

Well well ~ DAY 1 at Biopolis ~ I'm currently on IAP ... attached to Center for Molecular Medicine (CMM) at Biopolis for 3 1/2 mths for those who still don't know ~
Anywayz ~ interesting day ~ slack ~ but interesting =p Basically I'm training under one the post-doctorate scientist ... supposed to research with her on molecular basis of parkinson using fruitflies as model ~ I've learnt quite the basics of fruitfly biology and identification ~ apart from that alot of scientific paper reading ~
Everyone is friendly ~ Lets see how things turn out as the days goes on =p

Quote: "We're all Humans ... Mistakes are unavoidable ... As scientist we are curiousity driven~ question each other ~ don't take offence in doubtful remarks ~" --- Dr.Gerald Udolph

and so marks the end of year 2 ~ year 3 here we come ~

Well ~ been at the airport all day ~ sent Jess off ~
I suppose through the many semesters and close friendship we shared between us ~ I've grown a fond dependence on her as well as her presence in my life so much so I can't help but feel lost and empty knowing that she'll be away from me for 3 1/2 mths ~ Nice of her to leave me a little something to talk to in her absence ~ Xiao Huang the caterpillar ~ Missing ya already girl ~ drop me a msg soon ~
Spent the rest of my day with hUi and Brian and Ed ~ Went around city hall ~ dinning chilling ~ crapping ~ Spent quite some time working on the FOC project ~ classified information I'm not at liberty to discuss yet =p

Well ~ Departure of OIAP students is Today ~

Well Well ~ past midnite already ~ haha ~ can't slp coz of the really late and heavy dinner with bevan ~ a little belated birthday cum farewell dinner with my best friend ~ Guess we hadn't got the chance to really sit down and enjoy ourselves much for the past 2 years ~
Today ~ or rather yesterday FINALLY got that chance and today he leaves the country by noon ~ sadly i won't be able to see him off ... sorry bro ~ but do take care ... I wanna say I'm gonna miss you ~ but i've been missing u lots since we entered poly ~ SO SORRY ... time has not been on either of our sides and opportunities to meet are scarse ... Glad to know from our conversation today that u've kept urself updated abt my life ~ Thanks for your concerns =) Don't worry too much for me ~ I know U know me best ... keep me in check but Trust in my opinions =) I'm a foolish lover ~ But I'm also a sensible man ~ Enjoy your trip ! I'll be looking forward to our semester together again !
Alot more people leaving today ~ All the best people ~ some i'm closer to others i'm not as close... whichever the case I bid all a safe and fruitful experience over at ur individual attached institutes =) bon voyage ~

As the saying goes : "Absence makes the heart grows fonder"
Words of the heart : "Stay with me my love ~ Just a moment longer ~ For I want to Preserve this moment in my memories for till you return ~ I'm gonna miss you ~"

And Peace Returns To Sector 2.2 ~ At least for now ...

Standing over the cliff ~ Lord FoX and all Allied Forces stands tall ~ Watching the setting sun ~
The last stronghold in sector 2.2 has secumbed to our forces ~ Few insignificant rebels remains lingering ard the outskirts of the sector but all forces have stood down and today we feast over our victory !

Concluding the story ~ Today marks the last of the finals ~ AMB proved to be predictable yet challenge was posted in form of a few distinctive questions which escaped prediction =)
Finally after much anticipation I had my day out with Jess *cheers* yet it seems like heavens will not grant me a simple day without interruptions *grumbles* either way i did manage to get a few hours of time alone with her ... fruitful for her though ~ Given that she bothered to squeeze time in that tight schedule for me i guess i can't complain but i would still had preferred a movie and a walk by the bay =Either way ~ thanks ger =)

OH ~ Dad came home with plenty of that Armstrong Cancer Foundation Yellow LiveStrong Band ~ HaHa been meaning to make a donation and get the band =) He claims that he has quite a few with him so anyone interested ? Let me know I'll try to get U one =)

Tomorrow is all planned out ~ gonna siam novices ~ get my well deserved rest ... spend some time with my best friend for his belated birthday and pre OIAP dinner ~

Many disturbing thoughts are huanting me ~ wonder what i should do ~ harmless remarks ~ simple advice ~ even personal thoughts i share ~ I'm compelled to be sensitive to how others feel ~ friends or foes ~ What happened to human rights ? What happened to Justice ? God ! Help me ! Bestow upon me the knowledge to break the armour of irony !

Counting down ~

Muhahaha ~ Feeling much better now ~ and preperations today proved more or less fruitful =)
I'm sitting in the living room waiting for dinner now ~ shall resume the last push for the paper tml ~ No mood really last paper ~ been tired and all ~ BUT nonetheless anticipating tml !
Tomorrow will be a good day ~ Finally some rest and Finally that long due movie ... dinner and long walk ~
Heres praying for a beautiful tomorrow ~ full recovery and a successful paper =D Indeed Our Lord Is Worth Praise ! Alleluya ~

Heres a side note for people wondering why i gave up my appeal from my last post and removing it ~ I admit I may be slightly harsh with that last sentance but correct me if i'm wrong but 1) I'm already non specific to whom i'm mentioning 2) I gave a valid and reasonable explaination for my actions 3) Forgive me if it is wrong to even state nicely how i feel !
Well whatever it is it HAS BEEN REMOVED ~ I will extend my tolerance once more ... Don't Push Me ~

Conquest ~ Sector 2.2 ~ The FINAL BATTLE

Direct 22hr march from Fort IMM Lord FoX's forces pulls through with the claiming of Port AQUA ~ But even as our hero rest and prepares for the final battle~ His forces grows tired ~ weary ~ wounded ~ weapons and resources depletes with little reinforcements from the conquered cities ...
Physical and Mentally worn out ~ Down with illness ~ How does one pull through ? Faith ~ Persistence ~

Not really in the crapping mood but yar ~ the story today describes it all ~ From IMM to AQUA ... relief comes knowing that friday brings the final paper ~ AMB is the least of my fears but with no preparations made till now and your mental motivations drawn low with illness and no strong papers to back up those As ~ One can only drag himself towards the last praying for the best ~ Yet once more i shall hold true to my slogan "I Will Pull Through~ I Always Do~"

All Men To Arms ~ Seige Fort IMM ~

Well ~ been preparing like nutz for IMM ~ I suppose the nxt greatest fear after maths ~ Ha ~
Attempted past year papers today ~ DAMN demoralizing ~ SICK ~
Took corrective measures though ~ heres praying hard for luck and favor ~

Lord of Wisdom ...
Originator of Knowledge ...
Grant me favor and Grant me chance ...
Heres a poor soul calling for help once again ...
For IMM ... I'm Not immune to ~
Help me please ~
Amen~

Well hope Tml's seige will not last the whole 2 hours ~ Fort IMM shall fall to me before 2 hrs ~ I'll Pull Through ~

All Men To Arms ~ Seige Fort IMM ~

IMM is tml ~ arghz ~ prepared like one cannot prepare no more ~ yet taking a trial today with past year papers shows that I know nutz ! Hate the feeling ~ arghz ~ anywayz took corrective measures ~ pray hard that I'll pull through~
Not much say ~ no intentions for last words ~ I WILL PULL THROUGH ~ to arms ~ The siege shall last no more than 2hrs ~

Still Burning ~

12 hours into the onslaught of the the fever ~ I'm alive but still feverish ~ visited a family doc that i'ven been to since i was 13 ? HaHa well ... apart from looking more aunty ~ dear dr.lee still remains freaking chatty ~ wonder how she survives with minimal patients and an average consultant time of 20 - 30 mins ~
According to grandma ~ dr.lee grew up in this region since the kampung days ~ studied here ~ fell in love and got married here ~ and to date serving this region as a general practioner ~ Some people spend most of their lives never to move from their hometown for long and always finding themselves back at thier homeland...
Well enough abt the doc ~ now more abt me ~ according to her ~ i'm down with something really bad ~ I'm on Antibiotics till friday ~ so i guess that means gonna take me awhile to recover :(
Say wonder if they've a guiness world record for most consecutive illness in 3 mths ~
Thats all the update for now ~
Quote: "Trials of Life are infinite ~ But men of substance pulls through all ~"---Theorem of LeFoX

Burn ! ~ Burn ! ~

First ~ attempted to write a nice nice blog with pix yesterday but with a click of the dumb back button from the preview page lost my hour's hardwork -_-"
Attempt another day excuse me ~
Well ~ today was definately cold ~ been freezing all day ... at least to me ~ been picking up a mild temp since last nite ... but with panadol i thought i would be fine ~ but apparently it confrimed that its not working with the burning heat of 39.3 just moments before :(
I don't know what more to say ~ Bottled up heat of anger ? stress ? i don't know ~ whatever it is GOD help me ! You're the divine healer yar ? heavenly father ~ U know what i need best ~ quick dose of internal flames ~ both physical and emotional ... Grant me assurance ... Grant me peace ... Grant me quick relieve (no puns intended) ...
Looking on the brightside breakfast with jess was good =9 portaguese tart ! (Now thats a mouth watering treat i hadn't had for awhile ~ hardly seen even ~ *hee*hee*hix*
Well ~ thats the last of my strength tonite ~ again i lag behind in my revision ~ haiz ~ GOD ! SAVE ME !!!

Heavenly father in thy throne of heaven ~
Mighty healer of bodies and souls ~
Ur child beckons~ in wails and in pain ~
Heal my most unworthy wounds ~
Let the heat burn the Hell out from within Thy child ~
Yet grant me relief from this enduring heat ~
For I seek more than just salvation~
Please~ My LORD ~
Please ~

Amen~

Note: Funny how I seek the LORD the most only when i find myself in trouble ~ Most Unworthy times ~ Weakest form~ Doesn't that make me a loser ? a whimp ? Who cowers for cover and shelther only when i'm in need ? Reflection indeed is needed ~

Conquest Of Sem 2.2 ! The Fellowship ~

The time has come again for our heroes to move on to the battlefield ~ The time of reckoning is NOW ~ Sector 2.2 will no longer be kept from Us ... 3days of intensive training & preparation ~
Moments before the breeching of Fort MST II ... Lord FoX takes his place before his troops facing his worse fears ... drawing a slow, deep breath, taking comfort knowing that the fellowship has prepared him and shall be mounting this assualt with him as he draws his blade and signals for the attack~
The battle was long and it was definately not easy ... but with only one goal in mind our hero charges through the battlefield slaying the enemy one by one ~ Trying his best to keep to every strategy and move from his last 3days of training ...
Finally ~ 4pm ... Our hero emerges alive with the fellowship ... Victorious ~ Fort MST II has been claimed ... But in the feasting and the rejoicing in the sunset ... our heroes knows that there are still 3 Forts to be claimed in this sector ~ before peace may be returned to Sector 2.2 ...

Well .... thats my lousy excuse for an attempt of a short story to cover what has happened in the past 4 days ... with kitty ~ Jeremy and our notes ~ perhaps that is much like what is to happen in the 6-7 days to come = Nothing to be happy about but thats all a bundled deal with school studies and certifications .... (not to mention living in a meritocratic society)
Apart from school don't have much of a life this week and nxt due to the exam period ~ Met up with Hid and Clay (Rubbery & Jelloman respectively) for our usual chill out this evening ~ Our dear Rubbery is still finding means and ways to get to this sweet non-"mina" malay girl we met abt a mth back at penisular ~ Apparently coincidence isn't happening again for them ~ But persistent he remains nonetheless ~ keep it up bro ~ Spent most of the night talking about how to go abt starting a little business ~ many ideas came up but most rejected for some reason or the other ~ been at this for quite while ... All started with "That Chill Out Place/Spot" --- a little dream cafe where we can spend time with old friend chilling out ~ and providing the youths of this stressed out nation with a place to do the same =) of coz for a reasonable fee ~
Well many a times we make accquaintances ... and definately some friends ... these people come and go as our lives goes on ~ But how often do we make friends ... close friends who remains close and get closer with us as we each go on with our individual lives ? The answer ... not many in this busy practical society ... everyone is mainly there for a purpose and when that purpose expires ... the friendship fades ... That is not much of a friendship then issit ? =) I'm glad to say that I've found in those above mentioned and a several others a friendship that does not exist for a purpose with a shelf-life ... And everyone can have such friends ... its a matter of making the effort to maintain and nature the friendship with people ard us =)

Quote of the Day : "It is not in the quantity but the quality of friendship One offers that truely measures One's social standing & strength" ---Theorem of LeFoX (LoRd FoX)
Note: A Chinese saying goes: "To Gather Brothers Within The 4 Seas" , To me ... I value friendship and I believe in naturing strong relationships where possible ~ Quality is what i seek ~ Quantity well ... the more the merrier of coz! =p

OB AGM once again ~

Today marks the one year mark of yet another of those great dissapointment that I've accumulated ... Its Outwards Bounder's AGM ... Exactly a year ago ... I was THAT confident that I would had made the 11th comm. And that today would had been a day I would be in tears and swelling with the experience that NPOB has to offer. Of coz all that did not happen ...
However through the year, I've learnt much ... I've learnt that things don't always turn out the way you want them to ... It doesn't matter how many people think that its gonna turn out that way ... If it ain't meant to turn out that way It simply ain't gonna turn out that way ... HaHa
Well, Today was a gathering worth attending ... meeting batchmates ... seeing alumnis ... looking at new faces of the new batches after us ... Suddenly ... I feel that OB may had taught me much ... indeed many friendship were forged ... many lessons learnt ... much has happened in a short 1 year with the bounders .... much applied to the year that follows ... YET ... the feeling of never having to set foot abroad on an OB course still huants me and strikes me deep ... Not making it to serve as a comm. member well ... after pioneering and chairing NAFPA co-ordinators and serving a year in the treasury of NP Fencing ... well club leadership is not what i truely can commit to ... I'm an advisor not the commited leader ...
That aside ... one may think its a trival matter ... but when our dearest murphy's law comes into play ... even the greatest of men may fall ... Disappointments don't come alone ...
Looking on the bright side once more ... I find myself climbing the school gates crossing into SIM territories and over the gates of SIM which I damaged while trying to scale -_-" Was pretty fun not considering the damage done to the gates and myself ...
Thoughts are running all over the place right abt now ... excuse the disorganised entry ... I shall stop my ranting for now =) Dreamland awaits ... perhaps with a dream as sweet as the night before ...

And So ...

Well well well ... took me long enough to recover this blog to a presentable state ! HA !
To start off ~ The passing semester has had it ups and downs as of every part of my life ~ Nothing ever seems to stay smooth long enough for me to enjoy it throughly =) Oh well ~ as legends has it ~ Life was never meant to be easy !
Been doing the soul searching thing agian ~ Learnt quite abit of new stuff ... special thanks to jing for helping me think over some matters and to "Five People You Meet In Heaven" ... Still in the mids of searching but I'll have to leave it aside till end of the exams ... Project week just ended abt a week or so ago ~ everything seems to be passing at march 1 speed as far as the semester goes ... Took my pract papers today ... Anyone taking Aqua selection I'm sorry but its the WRONG choice ~ Fun but be ready to compromise on the scores ...
Well ~ Looking forward to after the exams ... But at the same time there is nothing much to look forward to ~ Jess, Bevan and the OIAP students will be flying off on the 3rd april ~ exams ends on 1st april ! 5th marks the start of IAP ! So get what i mean ? =)
All is NOT lost though ... Got a trip to JB with Shahid & Clay ~ another Retreat to Ubin ~ Retreat to Tioman with Brian & "The Chapalan Gang" ~ FOC trial camp ~ FOC camp ~ Fencing Camp and perhaps a trip to Sentosa ~ Sounds pretty exciting eh ~ hope they actually HAPPEN ! =X

Thoughts : "There is SO much to say ~ SO little time ~ SO much implications ~ To Say Or Not To Say that is not the only qnt ~ To Whom Or All ?"

Happy Birthday To Me ! =P

Hello ~ well to anyone who actually has been keeping to my blog post ... i'm sorry ar ... lazy to blog ar ... sometimes don't know what to say ~ anywayz take this chance to update ~ :P

18th Jan 2005 ! I've turned 19 ! haha 2 years to 21 ! ~ 1 year to 20 ... 1 year to army -__- ~
Once upon a time ~ there was this girl that came to me asking "Simon ~ will u forget me when we graduate ?" Back then ~ my thoughts were "Silly girl ~ i'm not even in the same school as you why will I forget u ?" Now ~ i understand what she means as i feel like asking someone the very same question ~ haha ironic isn't it ? Speaking of which ~ It so happens I always end up liking gals with alot of problems ... and not getting to keep them =x

Anyone can tell me why someone who sees so much in u once that everyday she looks to u for comfort can end up hating u so much that she cannot bring herself to converse with u properly? Likewise how issit someone can believe in something so much that even though she likes u she is willing to give up that liking just to comply to the standards of that soceity?

Rite ~ sad things aside ~ Birthday was fun :P celebrated my birthday on Sunday with Bevan Clayton and Shahid as well as my cousin and family ! Pizza ~ Fruits and Cake ~ simple but satisfying ~ Got a nice pencil case from the guys which i filled out the following day ~
Tuesday was great too as i spent the day with Jess and Hui on a day out celebrating my bday as well as shopping for new year clothes ~ Finally got to try the famous crystal jade xiao long pao and la mien ~ mmmmmm ~ SUPER NICE ~ The gals surprized me with a gift of clothes and belt haha Thankz gals :D

Lots of bday messages and personal greetings from friends :P Thankz guys and gals ~ Think the celebration carries on this friday with team venturejuana and saturday as unlimited celebrates clayton's & the other jan babies bdays as well as a simple house warming at bevan's =D
A word on the quote of the day ~ Went out for another of those chill out sessions with clayton and shahid near my place ~ which reminds me that we met carol (a senior for mayflower) ... shes gotten so much slimer and prettier haha :P hardly recognise her ~ OKie ~ back to the word on my quote of the day ~ Hid was sharing abt mental barriers and enviromental upbringing effects on a person's success ... if u're frequently put down you won't go far in life ~ where as if you're in an encourgaing enviroment u tend to go further ~ for example niel armstrong's mother said "remember to come down in time for dinner!" in response to him climbing up a tree when he was young. Whereas our mums probably says "come down this instance!Do u want to get hurt?" ... This can very much result in the difference of your answers to the following question:
"Do U think U'll Ever Own A Lumbogene in this LifeTime ?"
Most people will say no because They don't dream big ~

As u can see simple things as that can affect how we think ~ and hence ~ enviroment plays an important part in how we act ~ be it in what we believe in and how much risk we're willing to take ~ So people learn to breech that mental barrier !

Think about it NO ONE is a LOSER ~ because the moment u're concieved you're a winner ... U are THE ONE sperm cell of the millions of sperm cells that devoid of all adversities emerged the FIRST not only to reach the egg but also the ONLY that penetrated it and merged with it to become of U ... Hence, EVERYBODY regardless of race, language or religion (because all these means nothing to a sperm cell) IS BORN A WINNER ~

Quote of the day : "Mental Barriers takes U out of SuCCESS ~ Breech that barrier and Put U Back into SUCCESS !"
Quote of the day : "eVeRyBoDy's bOrn a WINNER !"

The ReUnIoN

Come to think about life ... friends are people you can never do without ... friends are not just people to have fun with ... They are not just memories ... They are not just passing phases ... Friends are much much more than that ... They all walk into our lives at different points in time ... and eventually they have to leave us as they move on ... To me ... When it boils down to true friends its not about how long they stay physically in our lives ... but how long they stay emotionally attached to us within our hearts and theirs'.
From a boy who had been brought up to honour promises and trust .... But never to trust 100% ... With little friends around myself for the period of pre school to primary school ... I've grown to become one who is willing to trust people, one who values friendship and one who has a desire to befriend the world.
Met up with my secondary school friends for a BBQ gathering and then meeting some for a retreat to ubin for a night. I wasn't satisfied that i do not deny ... I would had wished to see more of them and also to see more of my other friends who didn't make it ... But it is this short time of dedicated reunion ... short period of coming back together ... that makes me realise these are the friends you know will always be there when you seek them ... these are the people who had seen you through thick and thin ... sad and happy ... dumb and dumber times ... Such created that 1 unique bonding that with each of them ... it doesn't matter what you do ... basically any time spent together are great times !

Reloaded

Hello People~
This whole apologising about my taking forever to update blogs are getting a little too frequent ;p Anywayz ... Well Exams are over ... Holidays are well into its primetime ... Awaiting for results now ... Fencing camp and a couple of chalets had made their mark ... What remains would be SALT course and if it even holds up Venturejuana.
This project is all ready to fire off with a blazing start ... Just lacks 1 major component ... Participants ... Bloody secondary schools have no honour , ask for slots and ends up none of them complies and even worse some just simply withdraw ... haiz .... God Bless the project ... I only fear for the worse ... sigh ....
Plenty on my mind these days ...
converted on the 1st of october ... been attending services at trinity christian center ... Got to know quite alot of people and things ... wonder if i've made the right choice ... everyone there is so devoted ... Me ? I'm just not the devoted sorta guy ... not in case of a religion that is ...
Venturejuana in distress ... the commitee is holding up alright but as much as each of us keep a smile through out meeting we all know deep down inside it hurts to see our project fail ... If only we can find the 26 participants by friday ... If only ...
Maths is coming up again nxt sem ... wonder how well i'll hold up against that ...
I've assume role of president for Ngee Ann's NAPFA Society ... but great powers comes with great responsibilities ... now i know what that means ... alot of work to be done ... alot of decisions to be made ... alot of people to please ... alot of everything i shouldn't had taken too lightly ...
Oh yar ... just to side track something nice had happened met my "daughter" at church yesterday ... pretty surprized but haha always good to see familiar faces yar :P
Back to my woes ... Fencing Novices are coming up ... i know i should be spending time training but well sometimes just feel too lazy ... arghz ... hate myself ... MUST train !!!
Still fed up with the whole get a girlfriend thing ... Don't know what to do abt it now ... Sat down to think abt it the other day ... Decided i won't have a relationship which isn't gonna last ... But still i find myself being very nice to her ... *shrugs* wonder if she even bothers ...
Joyce is coming back =) Thats something to look forward to ... haven't seen her for say ... a year or so now ... wonder how much shes changed ... had a nice chat over the phone the other day ... sounded every bit like her ... =) Feeling pretty bad for some things i did ... Should try to surpress my emotions more ...
Guess i'm the freaking emotional kinda guy ... I can hold emotions pretty well ... but i guesss as much as i can ... my emotions are just sometimes too strong for me to hold down ...
Hmm looking forward to SALT ... hoping Gunang Panti will give me a good chance to retreat to nature and hopefully in its course rejuvanate me !
Gonna see Ivan and Kenny off to South Africa today ... so wanted to go for that course ... but money has proven yet again to be a root problem ... I'm not poor ... but i'm not rich .... I suppose like my day say ... this is the worse position to be in ... No ones gonna take pity on you ... Yet envy is gonna be on ur mind all the time coz you haven't suffered enough to understand what is truely being poor ...

Quote of the day : "If the lord brings U to it ... He'll Bring u Through it" --- Anomynous
Note : Hope that is true ...