The irony of Life

There is alot i wanna type but time is a limiting factor ... I know its 10pm on a friday night and I've no plans the following morning ... But lap top died on me ... so don't expect me online much =\ Of coz I'm not totally beyond reach, handphone is still available ... Haiz ~ Lappy do come home soon =(
A little prayer for the little problems recently ...

Dear lord ...
Your humble serf kneels before you again ...
only to seek that you intervene into his insignificant life ...
To heal this time not wounds of his own ...
Nor solve matters that concerns him direct ...
But to spread thy healing wings over the people around him ...
I know your powers are limitless and your mercy boderless ...
Unlike the many humans that tread this sicken earth ...
Hence I throw myself before only to ask that you heal our unworthy souls once more ...
In Jesus' Most Merciful Name ... I pray for friends in need ...
Amen ~

Note: As much as I believe our lord is almightly and all knowledgable ... I fear the many made in his likeness fails to inherit his character ... And many more who studies his ways to reach this point fails to move in the right directions for their eyes are far too much clouded by words and perceptions ... many lose sight of the truth of character ...
Quote: Build Thee A Strength That Strengthens Thy Soul ... Not Thee A Temple That Glorifies And Craves A Pseudo Soul ...

Laboratory ~

Hello people ~
Simon is currently sitting in the lab slacking while his partners are hard at work loading the electrophoresis gel ... BLOODY SLACKER !!!
No No ~ I'm just sleepy from the previous nite with the fencers ... Waiting for lunch and meeting with Mrs.Tang ... Boring slackish research day ... not much to accomplish ~
Bored ...
Here are some pix we took some days back ~ this shows how boring it can get during incubation hours ~


Mousy


Mousy & Horsey

Oh Yar ... CAMP finally picked up pace with the FUN given i'm only available at night ... haha can't complain ... BUT oh well its ending =(

Fencing Camp NITE 1 ~

What am I doing ? Bumming ard in sch ... Slacking ...
Fencing camp is going on ... first nite and they are all dead !!!
LaLaLa ~ FREAKING BORING ...
I WANNA HAVE A NITE LIFE !!! ITS A CAMP !!!

Blast From The Recent Past ~

Heres a few pics summarizing some of the stuff in the past academic year ... last nov till now ...



A little sun basking with Jess ... Kitty & Mike


Accending The Pesudo Mountain ~ Gunung Panti


Submit Gunung Panti ! Team Ngee Ann SALT I 04/05




The Decent of Panti ~


Retreating Into the unknown ~


HaHa juz kidding ... Its juz ubin ~




The first trip ... Bunsen Flame Died ! Back to Basics !
A toast to our successful fire ! Cadets back in action ! muhahaha ~




A second trip to our fav. retreat site ~ with a proper bunsen this time =)



Team Venturejuana ~ too many pix too little space ...

CryoTherapy

Went to NSC yesterday for wart removal ... my family GP recommended a laser removal ... But NSC's consultant Dr.Chong decided that its more advisible to put me on cryotherapy ... Wondering if Laser would had been a better option ... hmmm ... *wonders*

OH well anywayz ... Not sure abt them warts ... BUT I know I was getting freezed to the core of my feet with liquid nitrogen -_-" and one would think thats the end of the torment at least till nxt treatment scheduled 2 weeks from now ... BUT NO ~ bloody blisters are formed ... did some read up on the net ... and realised that its part of the treatment -_-" ... Anywayz got them punctured today at my GP's ... Think I'll do my own puncturing nxt time ... cost me $24 to puncture 2 blisters and get a tube of cream ... sheez ...

Well enough abt the torments =
Heres a little surprize i picked up while reading up on blisters ... some adventurers came up with a 6 dice game of BLISTERS ... named affectionately after the empire residing on both his feet haha ~ Anywayz interesting game ... Inspiring too think I'll have Quayzard suggested to somebody and start selling too *winkz*

What is Quayzard ? Its something that came to me in my dreams interesting game ... hmm ... Wanna know more come to me ... The name ? well it came with the dream too so don't ask ... Been having quite a few dejavu with dreams and reality ... Think i'm prophetic ? hahaha
Simon The Visionary ! sounds cool ehz ? *mindless laughter*

Went for a moive with Ariel last nite ~ Brothers Grim ... Interesting show ... complilation or maybe more of adaptations of quite a number of european fairytales all came together in a tale of swindlers turned heros ... where seeing is believing and believing is the key to sucess ~ HaHa ~ They should empoly me to slogan their movie =)

Well supposed to be in sch working on FYP but them bloody blisters are still in my way ~ Hopefully I'll regain my mobility soon

The New Chapter

Ah yes ~ Finally we come to the end of this seemingly long semester ... 7 weeks of academics never felt longer ... Been a frantic ... heavy semester that made absolutely no sense to me ... turbulance levels never hit greater heights on the meters of problems and troubles ... Enduring it was definately no breeze of wind ... I guess one word sums it all ... "Katrina"
Haha a little exaggerated but yea ~ u get the idea =)
Well glad that this chapter is coming to an end ... the "holidays" hopefully bring a better semester ahead ... FYP & training would occupy most of the holiday period ... My plans ? None out of school work ... But hoping to spend sometime catch up with old friends ... repair those rusty bridges and those erroding with time ... feel quite guilty for not keeping in touch with old friends ... But this semester has taught me that we build bridges not to leave them to rot ... Picking up the big mess after the storm is another thing to be done =)
Oh yes ! camps ... time for simon to go back to the participant level and enjoy camps while i still have the chance ... the feel of NS is creeping in on me ... and I'm not liking it ... I love my country I'd die for its people if I must ... But I'm just never keen on military discipline =(
So people ... If you're free OR you've a camp I can come to ... do let me know =)

Heres another msg : IF YOU'RE READING THIS BEFORE TUESDAY 20th OF SEPTEMBER AND YOU WERE PREVIOUSLY FROM MAYFLOWER .... DO CALL ME WITH REGARDS TO A REUNION DINNER CUM XJ & DAP'S FAREWELL ...

Quote: Life is never meant to be smooth sailing ~ Which sailor never knew a tempermental sea ? Which vessel of the sea is built for calm waters only ?

At Peace With Myself ~

Past few days had been good =) Peaceful ... Quiet ... Not many emotional outburst ...
Save the mental torment of studying ... I guess its been the best days this semester !
Had a nice fruitful talk with deyang a few nites back ... though it was a short conversation ... but my dear friend has always been a great mentor who gives great counsel ... You know what ? I think you're right bro ! I feel so much better now ...
PDC is seems to be stuck ... God Bless Us ? hahaha
Anywayz 3 papers down and two more to go ! Getting there people ... Push it !

Sunday at long last ~

Well well ~ Tanglin Friendly was yesterday and ngee ann went home with all the gold throphies !!! =) *cheers to NPF*
Sabre Teams bagged a Gold for both Men's and Ladies' events ... A Silver as well ~
Foil Teams brought home the another 2 Golds for Ngee Ann ...
A Day to celebrate indeed ... 5 teams and 5 top throphies ! Although we were fencing only Tanglin Secondary ... Sounds like bullying kids ... But trust me we have no more fencing experience than they do =P
Pesta Sukan would give us a better national standing and our teams managed to bring home 2 Silvers from the Sabre events ~ So based on that I suppose we aren't really bad either =)

I think I've a soft spot for people in need ... friend, foe or otherwise ... wonder if that is all good ... makes me a bad soldier =(

I should be studying ~

Hmm ... blogging agian ? Damn I must be feeling really off ~ -_-" Well ... with knowledge that some unpleasent people may have access to my blog ... I'm still gonna just pour my heart out =\ Like why the fuck would i care yar ?
Mmm ... Mrs.Tang u don't know how right you are ... Stress ... Strains and Implications ... I'm dying ... Year 3 is really a phrase u wanna get out of "faster faster" (as dr.zaman would say) ... Hai~ I really should pull myself together and get my life back on track ...
I can cry out to God for a million times ... pour out to everyone I see ... but its not gonna help sitting ard whinning and praying for miracles ~
Deyang where are u ? I need your ever reassuring words ... This brother of mine is always there to put me back on track ... to give me the right advice at the right time ... to help me sort out my thoughts when i've sank far deep below ... but like all people we meet ... our paths will diverage ... =(
Ben ? Ben ? Are u anywhere near ? Yet another name that sooths the heart with words and a tide slap to wake up one's idea ...
Simon is a bad guy ... Seeks people only when in need ... Simon has weak character ... cannot accomodate excessive people in his life ... cannot handle his own emotions ...
This post WILL soon be deleted ... I hope ... ha ~ For my enemies enjoy ... For my friends ... I'm sorry you guys have to see this ...

Am I The Healer Or The Killer ?

If u guys remember the post I once made regarding how some people can pour every bit of love they have into someone's life and yet the other party simply doesn't notice and may even be only pouring love elsewhere ?
I guess all of a sudden I feel guilty ... Life has been an emotional roller coaster for me ... Alot stuff been happening ... I feel neglected ... I feel lost ... I'm in pain ... But in this process of self pity I've become what i hate the most (self-centered, ignorant, unreasonable, childish) ... I'm so focus on getting one person's attention ... I failed to realise that there are those who are giving me attention and waiting for me to respond ... =( I'm sorry people ... Simon has not been the guy you all know ... Amongst all ... I wanna publicly apologise to xj who has always been there for me just that i never really showed appreciation nor did i responded well to her =(
Thankz xj ~
Emotions surely has taken its toll this time around ... find my academic performance dropping, my physical performance dropping, my abilities to communicate to entertain ... everything ... What is wrong with me ? It has never came to this point before ... gotta pull myself together =\ Come on Simon ~ Time to get back on track ...
Staff and student was a diaster with me not being on top form ... =( I'm sorry edmund and huiting ... sorry Ayu , Hardi and Shu Juan ... But then again I think its just my high expectations ... met a few peeps ... appears we've made quite an impact =)
Well ... I have mentioned in previous post abt this bugger who walked into my life and intended to make his problem mine ? Guess he must be the evil I must remove ... YET I feel sorry for him ... I feel that If I'm to seriously take actions against him ... then he might not be able to take it ... BUT ... Its hard to choose between killing yourself and someone else ... liddat how ? someone tell me please ? God's choice is clear ... self sacrifice ... but I'm not God ... so how ?
*looks into the heavens* Shine me thy guiding light ?

Funny Story ?

If you've been reading this blog u know that there is nothing to look forward to ... It catalogs only the worse parts of my life rarely anything good happens to me =( Everything good is probably because of everything bad that has happened ? HaHaHa
As usual ... Just dropping by to let my emotions out ... Been having a tough time with a close friend ... Infact been having tough times with 2 close friends ...
Bevan does seem to be anywhere in sight or within my reach anymore ... Where is my brother ? Will he be back ? What does it mean to abandon your friend apologise and never to return ? I'm waiting Bro ... If U're reading ... please contact me soon ? I never could hold anything against U for more than a day ... Come home to me Bro ... I'm waiting ...
U think with such a blow I'd be dead ? I thought so too ... But thanks to many friends ard me ... Whether or not they know of the case ... I remain sane ... Then again ... You nv expect 2 blows in the same semester ... would ya ? Well thats my life ...
Relationship between me and Jess has never been worse ... Especially at such a weak time ... What one needs is not another close friend to walk out on you ... I can't help but having many thoughts ...
Well at least things are seemingly becoming better for us ... with the talking and a little heart to heart we've come to an understanding ... BUT sometimes ... being the good guy isn't easy ...
Times are getting diffucult ... Mrs.Tang was right ... Year 3 is a trying year where relationships strains, faith fades, emotions runs wild ... Will to go on is under threat ... Everything is too fragile for big moves ...
This is the time I think a close friend is of utmost importance ... Someone you can talk to ... Someone you can trust to always be there when you look ...
So year 2s be prepared ~ Build Strong BONDS ... Keep your close friends close ...
Where do i stand ? I stand victim to someone else's incapacity to maintain his own clique, to keep his friends and someone who innocently or otherwise decided its alright to walk into someone else's life and take their friends as his own during such trying times ...
OF CAUSE ... he is an INNOCENT guy ... he is a NICE guy ... just needs a friend ... so who am I to say he is in the wrong ? I can only blame myself that my heart cannot capacitate and accomodate people ... Silly Simple Issue ... OF CAUSE IT IS ... Silly am I ... Simple is the situation ... Issue here is ... So some people walks into my life and makes himself comfortable ... because his is ruined ... So heres the million dollar question ? AM I TO WALK INTO AND RUIN SOMEONE ELSE's LIFE ?
OF cause plenty of people will know who I'm refering to ... But it is NOT good to wrong INNOCENT ... PITIFUL ... NICE guys who just needs a friend ... So I rather WRONG myself ... after all ... I'm quite sure I'm not INNOCENT ... not PITIFUL and not a NICE guy ... nope not all ... BAH ~ !

Life ... how VERY wonderful ...

Hello ~ wondering why I'm blogging at such an hour ? me too ... Should be doing reports that are due tml ... but dumb me decided to visit a number of blogs and sank deep into feeling sorry for myself again ... so I just HAD to find an outlet before i continue ...
I really don't understand where I've gone wrong ... sometimes I think i do ... but then again ... when i sit to think ... I'm not really that wrong ... so whats wrong ? HA ... I wished I knew ...

Heres a something that has been huanting me badly for quite awhile ...
If u love someone u're better off letting her do what she wants ... BUT what if when u do ... it'll only hurt u ? This is called self sacrifice ... Or after awhile I think I'm plain dumb ... BUT at least I remain a nice guy ...
So heres my new strategy in appoarch of getting myself a gf ... Find a nice gal ... whack within 3 dates ... Sounds crazy ? Beats waiting ard for 2 years knowing u'll get nothing in the whole mix ... If U want advice ... being too nice to people means being too bad to yourself ... where there is ying there is yang ... where there is good there is evil ... where there is balance everything is good ... when balance is tilt ... then one man's gain is the other's loss ... Chew on that ~ Believe it !

Well on the bright side (though given I'm supposed to do work not that good but appreciated) ~ got dragged out in the afternoons by team venturejuana ... Attendance was lack of Edmund Lim (Logistic & Entertainment Specialist) & Casper (Programs, Finance & Adventure Consultant). Present were Ayu (Safety and Programs Consultant), Ariel(Secretary & Entertainments Specialist) & Brian "The Boss" (need i say more?) .... Attempted to catch the fireworks ... not very successful ... Had a good dinner at carl jr. and an absolutely wonderful time at Mind's Cafe (Boss got cheated into getting membership) so ... I guess we'll be back there more often =p

Basic Communications With Your Soul ~

Good Afternoon ~ I'm sitting in office doing nothing once again ... so heres a little update and some thoughts i had of recent ... rememeber its all my opinions ... enjoy ~
Life I guess is never an easy road ... closing to 2mths 1 wk of attachment with CMM has given light to many misconceptions and previous believes for me (with regards to life ... society ... laboratories and people)
I guess working is never meant to be something fun ... but as the saying goes " how much fun you have depends very much on how much fun you want to have "...
In the reseach environment, fun is not a tangible value (then again ... since when was it tangible) ... So I guess passion is the key to sustaining the will to come to work and go through the same crap everyday =) However passion isn't something that comes at will ... which brings me to ponder if I will eventually go into the line of research ... Will Dr.Simon Soh become a dream that never becomes reality ? only time will tell ...
To me the research life meant exciting discoveries and endless mind boggling puzzles to be sloved with people working together to make it all happen in an intensive environment with uncountable array of chemicals ... Well the fact is ... I'm not all that wrong ... arrays of chemical yes ... just not really in use all the time ... intensive environment ... er ... not really ... people working together ... perhaps just a few ... in fact looking on the bright side lab isn't all that serious a place to be ... yet the endless repetition of the same protocol isn't exactly what i was looking for ...
Well enough abt labs and work ... i guess not many out there (even biologist in trg) may end up working in labs ... so moving on ...
In the course of time between now and when i first left sch for attachment ... I've come to realise that some habits that one may assume people grow out of may actually linger late into their lives if not attended to ... people in their 20s with no social skill .... people reaching their 30s with no goal in life ... people in their 30s with a general distaste for life & people ... I don't know ... maybe somewhere in there life they lost sight of their goals ... maybe somewhere along the path they forgot that their roots ... or maybe ... just maybe they sank into depression and gave up but no one ever came along to pick them up ...
In my opinion these people really need some help ... nothing too special ... perhaps from family ... a friend that cares ... if not there is always God ...
I can go blabber on and on ... for the rest of the day ... but from 11 20 in the morning ... I've been trying to post this entry till now ... which is abt 11 20 at nite ... so I shall type more another day ... For now my friends =) More for all to ponder on ...

Quote of the day:
"When in high spirits ... Seize the day ~ live it for what it is worth ... Yet keep in sight thy goal and forget not thy roots ...
When downcast by moods ... Dispair not & live for the better tomorrow ~For the goal is nearer with each passing moment ~ Take comfort that from thy roots strength is free to be drawn ... "
---Theorem of Le FoX

The Friendly Community ~

Well today has been interesting ... Went out for a walk ard town with shahid and henry ~ Very very fruitful day indeed ... Got myself a new polo tee but still no berms/pants ...
But ~ First we met a really old friend koon mean (jun min) - president of MFSC when I was in sec 1 ... Then met Terry and Zhi Hui (wonder if they're dating) ... Then there is KaiXiang and later met Wei Ming (my NCO when i was in sec 1) ... followed by Veronica (old friend from CISCO) ... Finally ... there met Casper ~ haha how many people can u meet in a day !!!
Well ~ after we concluded that we had enough walking for a day we retired to karim - the usual chill out mama shop for teh tarik and chup chai ~ haha like thats a new idea yar ? healthier choice of finger food ~
Damn boring post rite ? HaHa ... I guess I shouldn't really be sad and disappointed with my life ... given the amt of friends i have ... But ~ being only human I'll want more ...
Ever noticed that the one who is always there for people don't really have that many people who is always there for him when he is in need ? I guess if u're the one always there for someone or everyone u'd probably notice haha ~ I'm not complaining that there isn't enough people ard for me ... neither am i saying that I'm such a nice guy that I'm always ard for people ... but just wondering why people can become so devoted to give to certain people but not others and yet those on the receiving end may be more interested in pouring their love and their concerns elsewhere ? For someone else ?
The most conventional answer : Humans are objective and goal oriented creatures (yes everyone ... like it or not) ... We're designed in such that we will do what we deem beneficial to ourselves. Its a matter of how one defines beneficial ... It may not be a bad thing ... yet it can be a terrible thing ...
The true answer ? There is none ... For that only God knows ... What we can do is to ask ourselves ... the 5 wives and 1 husband technique ... Why? Where? When? What? Who? How ? ... I think this is the one technique MOE has decided everyone should know and I had nothing to argue abt ... it works for everyone for alot of things ... well just a little thought to chew on ~

Updated at long last =P

Well Well ~ either been freaking bz or freaking bored ... Here are some highlights of my life in the past month or so ...
Yet another retreat with shahid ... clayton but this time without joel instead we've got henry ... Ubin is massively changing rapidly ... I do hope the goverment will not destroy this small island paradise that gives the slightest of kumpung life left in singapore .... It holds many memories for many people ... The old ... the young ... couples ... friends ... cadets ... adventurers ... kumpungers ... Alot ... Well the trip was no lost met some TAS people in trg not really very friendly but i guess they're just in trg ... Met some guys from a SFC ( Singapore Flying College) ... now they were very friendly ! asked for cigarettes -_-" Well Well ... cept a little trouble from some dogs apart from that we had fun =)
LSCT Freshmen Orientation Camp =) Once again living the high life of a GL ? haha Not exactly ... as an SGL at camp ... We've became more of a support and advice committee rather than taking up the challenge running and executing in the lime lights ... Don't get me wrong ... it has it fun part ... and we're still running and executing the camp just at a different level and outside the limelights most of the time ... Not I mind ... but it would had been nicer if i've got to know some of the freshies =\ But nonetheless I wasn't really in the top of mood myself ... and i did get to know a couple of the GLs better so no reason complains i guess ...
Apart from that got to know some of the AGLs and even some of my fellow SGLs better ... Went for a little trip overnight at palawan beach completed with our very own campfire ! Haven't had any kinda campfire since ... maybe the ubin retreat with joel ... Had our small adventure of a night walk ... not very exciting ... but I guess everyone is just tired ...
I guess that sums up the happier times ... Work is getting routine ... I've been out alot ... but somehow a certain part of me is just empty ... unfilled out ... lack of a little something ... I don't know what is wrong with me ... Been searching myself for awhile ... looking for a reason of my being ... thinking abt problems left unsolved for ages ... I've found some answers and more questions wonder if this whole idea is worth it ... Been freaking moody and i've no one to talk to ... simply becoz there is nothing i can say ! arghz ~

News Flash : Coloured Cow Phenomena

News Flash !
*news music plays*
Massive amounts of coloured cows have been sighted at a number of empty fields around the Island country of Singapore ! Why have they appeared ? Who is responsible for this ? What is the meaning of this ? When did they appear ? How did they get there ?
Investigators are now looking into the case ~ they've rejected comments to the press hence far ...
Reporting live ~ Simon Soh ~
Back to you at the studio ~
*news music plays*

Tune in for more report on the cow news tml ~
Local news on Ngee Ann Poly ... The School of Life Science Director has been offically promoted to Senior Director of Ngee Ann Poly ... Still holding the post of Director of LSCT ~ Dr. Sushila Chang now runs not only LSCT but also HSN (School of Health Sciences: Nursing) which is directed by Dr.Phang Chiew Hun ~ Congrates to both ~

Thank you for tuning in to Interesting News @ The Den ~
Good Night Sweet Dreams~

Finding the Balance : Work & Life ~

Juggling time is perhaps the one skill that is most emphasized but least mastered of arts throughout one's school life as a student ~ How often does one hear the phrase "You have to learn to juggle your time for school work, CCA and yourself" ?
Often have I heard and read from comments of teachers on students, so and so has good time management juggling both academics and CCA ... That alone seems good enough for the teachers/mentors of schools ... Yet ~ how often do we neglect the fact that Balance is not just work ~ There is also Life to worry abt ~ afterall Life is what we're living ... work is what we do to sustain it based on society requirements ...
Being on attachment one learns that in an enviroment of work there are limitations social life ~ People pays you to work for a certain number of hours a week and that is something you're compelled to do ~ Unlike school ... you don't get to just sit ard and listen ~ At work one has to think more often than one receives instructions ... Another difference is ~ the learning process very experiential based ~
I think I might had side tracked too much ~ back to the topic ... the working life has much limitations to social life ~ Very often ~ social life is highly compromised for those who makes no efforts to maintain it ~ Then again ... it is very tiring to juggle between the two to reach the Balance ... For myself ... it has very much been a chore and I'm only experiencing working life on a minimal level ~ God help me ~ Gotta learn to adapt to it ~ Adding to that there are emotional attachments to friends that one takes very much granted in school ... the day to day people you see ... you play with ... you laugh with ... One just don't see them often anymore ~
=) Alot of getting used to after a little reflection on a week's work ~
Till nxt time ~ I leave one and all to ponder over the theme of Balance of Work and Life ~

Call Me DrosophilaMan~

Hello People ~
Day 3 starting to settle into CMM ~ Getting to know more new people and those I already know are getting friendlier ( don't get me wrong ~ they are already friendly people ~ Just getting more familiar thats all... )
Been working with flies since day 1 ... Being someone who never liked anything more than 4 legs I guess this is a BIG thing ~ Working 3 days with flies ... larvae and pupae ~ This week is generally selection for breeding and taking care of those pesky lil' things ~ Next week I'll be going on a KILLING spree as we move into the disection and screening phase ~
Got my temp card ~ so NO MORE PINK LANYARD ~
Tml shall go ard biopolis and enjoy a little stroll ard =) EXPLORATION ~
Btw a little note on today's title ~ the flies i'm working with are Drosophila Flies (or more commonly known as the fruit flies ~ you can find them lingering ard your bunch of ripe bananas and garbage bags) ... so the rest I'll leave it to your imaginations =p
Quote of the day: "There is NOTHING to Fear But Fear itself ~"---Theorem of LeFoX (quoted from Sir Winston Churchill)

Day 1 Attachment ~

Well well ~ DAY 1 at Biopolis ~ I'm currently on IAP ... attached to Center for Molecular Medicine (CMM) at Biopolis for 3 1/2 mths for those who still don't know ~
Anywayz ~ interesting day ~ slack ~ but interesting =p Basically I'm training under one the post-doctorate scientist ... supposed to research with her on molecular basis of parkinson using fruitflies as model ~ I've learnt quite the basics of fruitfly biology and identification ~ apart from that alot of scientific paper reading ~
Everyone is friendly ~ Lets see how things turn out as the days goes on =p

Quote: "We're all Humans ... Mistakes are unavoidable ... As scientist we are curiousity driven~ question each other ~ don't take offence in doubtful remarks ~" --- Dr.Gerald Udolph

and so marks the end of year 2 ~ year 3 here we come ~

Well ~ been at the airport all day ~ sent Jess off ~
I suppose through the many semesters and close friendship we shared between us ~ I've grown a fond dependence on her as well as her presence in my life so much so I can't help but feel lost and empty knowing that she'll be away from me for 3 1/2 mths ~ Nice of her to leave me a little something to talk to in her absence ~ Xiao Huang the caterpillar ~ Missing ya already girl ~ drop me a msg soon ~
Spent the rest of my day with hUi and Brian and Ed ~ Went around city hall ~ dinning chilling ~ crapping ~ Spent quite some time working on the FOC project ~ classified information I'm not at liberty to discuss yet =p

Well ~ Departure of OIAP students is Today ~

Well Well ~ past midnite already ~ haha ~ can't slp coz of the really late and heavy dinner with bevan ~ a little belated birthday cum farewell dinner with my best friend ~ Guess we hadn't got the chance to really sit down and enjoy ourselves much for the past 2 years ~
Today ~ or rather yesterday FINALLY got that chance and today he leaves the country by noon ~ sadly i won't be able to see him off ... sorry bro ~ but do take care ... I wanna say I'm gonna miss you ~ but i've been missing u lots since we entered poly ~ SO SORRY ... time has not been on either of our sides and opportunities to meet are scarse ... Glad to know from our conversation today that u've kept urself updated abt my life ~ Thanks for your concerns =) Don't worry too much for me ~ I know U know me best ... keep me in check but Trust in my opinions =) I'm a foolish lover ~ But I'm also a sensible man ~ Enjoy your trip ! I'll be looking forward to our semester together again !
Alot more people leaving today ~ All the best people ~ some i'm closer to others i'm not as close... whichever the case I bid all a safe and fruitful experience over at ur individual attached institutes =) bon voyage ~

As the saying goes : "Absence makes the heart grows fonder"
Words of the heart : "Stay with me my love ~ Just a moment longer ~ For I want to Preserve this moment in my memories for till you return ~ I'm gonna miss you ~"

And Peace Returns To Sector 2.2 ~ At least for now ...

Standing over the cliff ~ Lord FoX and all Allied Forces stands tall ~ Watching the setting sun ~
The last stronghold in sector 2.2 has secumbed to our forces ~ Few insignificant rebels remains lingering ard the outskirts of the sector but all forces have stood down and today we feast over our victory !

Concluding the story ~ Today marks the last of the finals ~ AMB proved to be predictable yet challenge was posted in form of a few distinctive questions which escaped prediction =)
Finally after much anticipation I had my day out with Jess *cheers* yet it seems like heavens will not grant me a simple day without interruptions *grumbles* either way i did manage to get a few hours of time alone with her ... fruitful for her though ~ Given that she bothered to squeeze time in that tight schedule for me i guess i can't complain but i would still had preferred a movie and a walk by the bay =Either way ~ thanks ger =)

OH ~ Dad came home with plenty of that Armstrong Cancer Foundation Yellow LiveStrong Band ~ HaHa been meaning to make a donation and get the band =) He claims that he has quite a few with him so anyone interested ? Let me know I'll try to get U one =)

Tomorrow is all planned out ~ gonna siam novices ~ get my well deserved rest ... spend some time with my best friend for his belated birthday and pre OIAP dinner ~

Many disturbing thoughts are huanting me ~ wonder what i should do ~ harmless remarks ~ simple advice ~ even personal thoughts i share ~ I'm compelled to be sensitive to how others feel ~ friends or foes ~ What happened to human rights ? What happened to Justice ? God ! Help me ! Bestow upon me the knowledge to break the armour of irony !

Counting down ~

Muhahaha ~ Feeling much better now ~ and preperations today proved more or less fruitful =)
I'm sitting in the living room waiting for dinner now ~ shall resume the last push for the paper tml ~ No mood really last paper ~ been tired and all ~ BUT nonetheless anticipating tml !
Tomorrow will be a good day ~ Finally some rest and Finally that long due movie ... dinner and long walk ~
Heres praying for a beautiful tomorrow ~ full recovery and a successful paper =D Indeed Our Lord Is Worth Praise ! Alleluya ~

Heres a side note for people wondering why i gave up my appeal from my last post and removing it ~ I admit I may be slightly harsh with that last sentance but correct me if i'm wrong but 1) I'm already non specific to whom i'm mentioning 2) I gave a valid and reasonable explaination for my actions 3) Forgive me if it is wrong to even state nicely how i feel !
Well whatever it is it HAS BEEN REMOVED ~ I will extend my tolerance once more ... Don't Push Me ~

Conquest ~ Sector 2.2 ~ The FINAL BATTLE

Direct 22hr march from Fort IMM Lord FoX's forces pulls through with the claiming of Port AQUA ~ But even as our hero rest and prepares for the final battle~ His forces grows tired ~ weary ~ wounded ~ weapons and resources depletes with little reinforcements from the conquered cities ...
Physical and Mentally worn out ~ Down with illness ~ How does one pull through ? Faith ~ Persistence ~

Not really in the crapping mood but yar ~ the story today describes it all ~ From IMM to AQUA ... relief comes knowing that friday brings the final paper ~ AMB is the least of my fears but with no preparations made till now and your mental motivations drawn low with illness and no strong papers to back up those As ~ One can only drag himself towards the last praying for the best ~ Yet once more i shall hold true to my slogan "I Will Pull Through~ I Always Do~"

All Men To Arms ~ Seige Fort IMM ~

Well ~ been preparing like nutz for IMM ~ I suppose the nxt greatest fear after maths ~ Ha ~
Attempted past year papers today ~ DAMN demoralizing ~ SICK ~
Took corrective measures though ~ heres praying hard for luck and favor ~

Lord of Wisdom ...
Originator of Knowledge ...
Grant me favor and Grant me chance ...
Heres a poor soul calling for help once again ...
For IMM ... I'm Not immune to ~
Help me please ~
Amen~

Well hope Tml's seige will not last the whole 2 hours ~ Fort IMM shall fall to me before 2 hrs ~ I'll Pull Through ~

All Men To Arms ~ Seige Fort IMM ~

IMM is tml ~ arghz ~ prepared like one cannot prepare no more ~ yet taking a trial today with past year papers shows that I know nutz ! Hate the feeling ~ arghz ~ anywayz took corrective measures ~ pray hard that I'll pull through~
Not much say ~ no intentions for last words ~ I WILL PULL THROUGH ~ to arms ~ The siege shall last no more than 2hrs ~

Still Burning ~

12 hours into the onslaught of the the fever ~ I'm alive but still feverish ~ visited a family doc that i'ven been to since i was 13 ? HaHa well ... apart from looking more aunty ~ dear dr.lee still remains freaking chatty ~ wonder how she survives with minimal patients and an average consultant time of 20 - 30 mins ~
According to grandma ~ dr.lee grew up in this region since the kampung days ~ studied here ~ fell in love and got married here ~ and to date serving this region as a general practioner ~ Some people spend most of their lives never to move from their hometown for long and always finding themselves back at thier homeland...
Well enough abt the doc ~ now more abt me ~ according to her ~ i'm down with something really bad ~ I'm on Antibiotics till friday ~ so i guess that means gonna take me awhile to recover :(
Say wonder if they've a guiness world record for most consecutive illness in 3 mths ~
Thats all the update for now ~
Quote: "Trials of Life are infinite ~ But men of substance pulls through all ~"---Theorem of LeFoX

Burn ! ~ Burn ! ~

First ~ attempted to write a nice nice blog with pix yesterday but with a click of the dumb back button from the preview page lost my hour's hardwork -_-"
Attempt another day excuse me ~
Well ~ today was definately cold ~ been freezing all day ... at least to me ~ been picking up a mild temp since last nite ... but with panadol i thought i would be fine ~ but apparently it confrimed that its not working with the burning heat of 39.3 just moments before :(
I don't know what more to say ~ Bottled up heat of anger ? stress ? i don't know ~ whatever it is GOD help me ! You're the divine healer yar ? heavenly father ~ U know what i need best ~ quick dose of internal flames ~ both physical and emotional ... Grant me assurance ... Grant me peace ... Grant me quick relieve (no puns intended) ...
Looking on the brightside breakfast with jess was good =9 portaguese tart ! (Now thats a mouth watering treat i hadn't had for awhile ~ hardly seen even ~ *hee*hee*hix*
Well ~ thats the last of my strength tonite ~ again i lag behind in my revision ~ haiz ~ GOD ! SAVE ME !!!

Heavenly father in thy throne of heaven ~
Mighty healer of bodies and souls ~
Ur child beckons~ in wails and in pain ~
Heal my most unworthy wounds ~
Let the heat burn the Hell out from within Thy child ~
Yet grant me relief from this enduring heat ~
For I seek more than just salvation~
Please~ My LORD ~
Please ~

Amen~

Note: Funny how I seek the LORD the most only when i find myself in trouble ~ Most Unworthy times ~ Weakest form~ Doesn't that make me a loser ? a whimp ? Who cowers for cover and shelther only when i'm in need ? Reflection indeed is needed ~

Conquest Of Sem 2.2 ! The Fellowship ~

The time has come again for our heroes to move on to the battlefield ~ The time of reckoning is NOW ~ Sector 2.2 will no longer be kept from Us ... 3days of intensive training & preparation ~
Moments before the breeching of Fort MST II ... Lord FoX takes his place before his troops facing his worse fears ... drawing a slow, deep breath, taking comfort knowing that the fellowship has prepared him and shall be mounting this assualt with him as he draws his blade and signals for the attack~
The battle was long and it was definately not easy ... but with only one goal in mind our hero charges through the battlefield slaying the enemy one by one ~ Trying his best to keep to every strategy and move from his last 3days of training ...
Finally ~ 4pm ... Our hero emerges alive with the fellowship ... Victorious ~ Fort MST II has been claimed ... But in the feasting and the rejoicing in the sunset ... our heroes knows that there are still 3 Forts to be claimed in this sector ~ before peace may be returned to Sector 2.2 ...

Well .... thats my lousy excuse for an attempt of a short story to cover what has happened in the past 4 days ... with kitty ~ Jeremy and our notes ~ perhaps that is much like what is to happen in the 6-7 days to come = Nothing to be happy about but thats all a bundled deal with school studies and certifications .... (not to mention living in a meritocratic society)
Apart from school don't have much of a life this week and nxt due to the exam period ~ Met up with Hid and Clay (Rubbery & Jelloman respectively) for our usual chill out this evening ~ Our dear Rubbery is still finding means and ways to get to this sweet non-"mina" malay girl we met abt a mth back at penisular ~ Apparently coincidence isn't happening again for them ~ But persistent he remains nonetheless ~ keep it up bro ~ Spent most of the night talking about how to go abt starting a little business ~ many ideas came up but most rejected for some reason or the other ~ been at this for quite while ... All started with "That Chill Out Place/Spot" --- a little dream cafe where we can spend time with old friend chilling out ~ and providing the youths of this stressed out nation with a place to do the same =) of coz for a reasonable fee ~
Well many a times we make accquaintances ... and definately some friends ... these people come and go as our lives goes on ~ But how often do we make friends ... close friends who remains close and get closer with us as we each go on with our individual lives ? The answer ... not many in this busy practical society ... everyone is mainly there for a purpose and when that purpose expires ... the friendship fades ... That is not much of a friendship then issit ? =) I'm glad to say that I've found in those above mentioned and a several others a friendship that does not exist for a purpose with a shelf-life ... And everyone can have such friends ... its a matter of making the effort to maintain and nature the friendship with people ard us =)

Quote of the Day : "It is not in the quantity but the quality of friendship One offers that truely measures One's social standing & strength" ---Theorem of LeFoX (LoRd FoX)
Note: A Chinese saying goes: "To Gather Brothers Within The 4 Seas" , To me ... I value friendship and I believe in naturing strong relationships where possible ~ Quality is what i seek ~ Quantity well ... the more the merrier of coz! =p

OB AGM once again ~

Today marks the one year mark of yet another of those great dissapointment that I've accumulated ... Its Outwards Bounder's AGM ... Exactly a year ago ... I was THAT confident that I would had made the 11th comm. And that today would had been a day I would be in tears and swelling with the experience that NPOB has to offer. Of coz all that did not happen ...
However through the year, I've learnt much ... I've learnt that things don't always turn out the way you want them to ... It doesn't matter how many people think that its gonna turn out that way ... If it ain't meant to turn out that way It simply ain't gonna turn out that way ... HaHa
Well, Today was a gathering worth attending ... meeting batchmates ... seeing alumnis ... looking at new faces of the new batches after us ... Suddenly ... I feel that OB may had taught me much ... indeed many friendship were forged ... many lessons learnt ... much has happened in a short 1 year with the bounders .... much applied to the year that follows ... YET ... the feeling of never having to set foot abroad on an OB course still huants me and strikes me deep ... Not making it to serve as a comm. member well ... after pioneering and chairing NAFPA co-ordinators and serving a year in the treasury of NP Fencing ... well club leadership is not what i truely can commit to ... I'm an advisor not the commited leader ...
That aside ... one may think its a trival matter ... but when our dearest murphy's law comes into play ... even the greatest of men may fall ... Disappointments don't come alone ...
Looking on the bright side once more ... I find myself climbing the school gates crossing into SIM territories and over the gates of SIM which I damaged while trying to scale -_-" Was pretty fun not considering the damage done to the gates and myself ...
Thoughts are running all over the place right abt now ... excuse the disorganised entry ... I shall stop my ranting for now =) Dreamland awaits ... perhaps with a dream as sweet as the night before ...

And So ...

Well well well ... took me long enough to recover this blog to a presentable state ! HA !
To start off ~ The passing semester has had it ups and downs as of every part of my life ~ Nothing ever seems to stay smooth long enough for me to enjoy it throughly =) Oh well ~ as legends has it ~ Life was never meant to be easy !
Been doing the soul searching thing agian ~ Learnt quite abit of new stuff ... special thanks to jing for helping me think over some matters and to "Five People You Meet In Heaven" ... Still in the mids of searching but I'll have to leave it aside till end of the exams ... Project week just ended abt a week or so ago ~ everything seems to be passing at march 1 speed as far as the semester goes ... Took my pract papers today ... Anyone taking Aqua selection I'm sorry but its the WRONG choice ~ Fun but be ready to compromise on the scores ...
Well ~ Looking forward to after the exams ... But at the same time there is nothing much to look forward to ~ Jess, Bevan and the OIAP students will be flying off on the 3rd april ~ exams ends on 1st april ! 5th marks the start of IAP ! So get what i mean ? =)
All is NOT lost though ... Got a trip to JB with Shahid & Clay ~ another Retreat to Ubin ~ Retreat to Tioman with Brian & "The Chapalan Gang" ~ FOC trial camp ~ FOC camp ~ Fencing Camp and perhaps a trip to Sentosa ~ Sounds pretty exciting eh ~ hope they actually HAPPEN ! =X

Thoughts : "There is SO much to say ~ SO little time ~ SO much implications ~ To Say Or Not To Say that is not the only qnt ~ To Whom Or All ?"

Happy Birthday To Me ! =P

Hello ~ well to anyone who actually has been keeping to my blog post ... i'm sorry ar ... lazy to blog ar ... sometimes don't know what to say ~ anywayz take this chance to update ~ :P

18th Jan 2005 ! I've turned 19 ! haha 2 years to 21 ! ~ 1 year to 20 ... 1 year to army -__- ~
Once upon a time ~ there was this girl that came to me asking "Simon ~ will u forget me when we graduate ?" Back then ~ my thoughts were "Silly girl ~ i'm not even in the same school as you why will I forget u ?" Now ~ i understand what she means as i feel like asking someone the very same question ~ haha ironic isn't it ? Speaking of which ~ It so happens I always end up liking gals with alot of problems ... and not getting to keep them =x

Anyone can tell me why someone who sees so much in u once that everyday she looks to u for comfort can end up hating u so much that she cannot bring herself to converse with u properly? Likewise how issit someone can believe in something so much that even though she likes u she is willing to give up that liking just to comply to the standards of that soceity?

Rite ~ sad things aside ~ Birthday was fun :P celebrated my birthday on Sunday with Bevan Clayton and Shahid as well as my cousin and family ! Pizza ~ Fruits and Cake ~ simple but satisfying ~ Got a nice pencil case from the guys which i filled out the following day ~
Tuesday was great too as i spent the day with Jess and Hui on a day out celebrating my bday as well as shopping for new year clothes ~ Finally got to try the famous crystal jade xiao long pao and la mien ~ mmmmmm ~ SUPER NICE ~ The gals surprized me with a gift of clothes and belt haha Thankz gals :D

Lots of bday messages and personal greetings from friends :P Thankz guys and gals ~ Think the celebration carries on this friday with team venturejuana and saturday as unlimited celebrates clayton's & the other jan babies bdays as well as a simple house warming at bevan's =D
A word on the quote of the day ~ Went out for another of those chill out sessions with clayton and shahid near my place ~ which reminds me that we met carol (a senior for mayflower) ... shes gotten so much slimer and prettier haha :P hardly recognise her ~ OKie ~ back to the word on my quote of the day ~ Hid was sharing abt mental barriers and enviromental upbringing effects on a person's success ... if u're frequently put down you won't go far in life ~ where as if you're in an encourgaing enviroment u tend to go further ~ for example niel armstrong's mother said "remember to come down in time for dinner!" in response to him climbing up a tree when he was young. Whereas our mums probably says "come down this instance!Do u want to get hurt?" ... This can very much result in the difference of your answers to the following question:
"Do U think U'll Ever Own A Lumbogene in this LifeTime ?"
Most people will say no because They don't dream big ~

As u can see simple things as that can affect how we think ~ and hence ~ enviroment plays an important part in how we act ~ be it in what we believe in and how much risk we're willing to take ~ So people learn to breech that mental barrier !

Think about it NO ONE is a LOSER ~ because the moment u're concieved you're a winner ... U are THE ONE sperm cell of the millions of sperm cells that devoid of all adversities emerged the FIRST not only to reach the egg but also the ONLY that penetrated it and merged with it to become of U ... Hence, EVERYBODY regardless of race, language or religion (because all these means nothing to a sperm cell) IS BORN A WINNER ~

Quote of the day : "Mental Barriers takes U out of SuCCESS ~ Breech that barrier and Put U Back into SUCCESS !"
Quote of the day : "eVeRyBoDy's bOrn a WINNER !"

The ReUnIoN

Come to think about life ... friends are people you can never do without ... friends are not just people to have fun with ... They are not just memories ... They are not just passing phases ... Friends are much much more than that ... They all walk into our lives at different points in time ... and eventually they have to leave us as they move on ... To me ... When it boils down to true friends its not about how long they stay physically in our lives ... but how long they stay emotionally attached to us within our hearts and theirs'.
From a boy who had been brought up to honour promises and trust .... But never to trust 100% ... With little friends around myself for the period of pre school to primary school ... I've grown to become one who is willing to trust people, one who values friendship and one who has a desire to befriend the world.
Met up with my secondary school friends for a BBQ gathering and then meeting some for a retreat to ubin for a night. I wasn't satisfied that i do not deny ... I would had wished to see more of them and also to see more of my other friends who didn't make it ... But it is this short time of dedicated reunion ... short period of coming back together ... that makes me realise these are the friends you know will always be there when you seek them ... these are the people who had seen you through thick and thin ... sad and happy ... dumb and dumber times ... Such created that 1 unique bonding that with each of them ... it doesn't matter what you do ... basically any time spent together are great times !

Reloaded

Hello People~
This whole apologising about my taking forever to update blogs are getting a little too frequent ;p Anywayz ... Well Exams are over ... Holidays are well into its primetime ... Awaiting for results now ... Fencing camp and a couple of chalets had made their mark ... What remains would be SALT course and if it even holds up Venturejuana.
This project is all ready to fire off with a blazing start ... Just lacks 1 major component ... Participants ... Bloody secondary schools have no honour , ask for slots and ends up none of them complies and even worse some just simply withdraw ... haiz .... God Bless the project ... I only fear for the worse ... sigh ....
Plenty on my mind these days ...
converted on the 1st of october ... been attending services at trinity christian center ... Got to know quite alot of people and things ... wonder if i've made the right choice ... everyone there is so devoted ... Me ? I'm just not the devoted sorta guy ... not in case of a religion that is ...
Venturejuana in distress ... the commitee is holding up alright but as much as each of us keep a smile through out meeting we all know deep down inside it hurts to see our project fail ... If only we can find the 26 participants by friday ... If only ...
Maths is coming up again nxt sem ... wonder how well i'll hold up against that ...
I've assume role of president for Ngee Ann's NAPFA Society ... but great powers comes with great responsibilities ... now i know what that means ... alot of work to be done ... alot of decisions to be made ... alot of people to please ... alot of everything i shouldn't had taken too lightly ...
Oh yar ... just to side track something nice had happened met my "daughter" at church yesterday ... pretty surprized but haha always good to see familiar faces yar :P
Back to my woes ... Fencing Novices are coming up ... i know i should be spending time training but well sometimes just feel too lazy ... arghz ... hate myself ... MUST train !!!
Still fed up with the whole get a girlfriend thing ... Don't know what to do abt it now ... Sat down to think abt it the other day ... Decided i won't have a relationship which isn't gonna last ... But still i find myself being very nice to her ... *shrugs* wonder if she even bothers ...
Joyce is coming back =) Thats something to look forward to ... haven't seen her for say ... a year or so now ... wonder how much shes changed ... had a nice chat over the phone the other day ... sounded every bit like her ... =) Feeling pretty bad for some things i did ... Should try to surpress my emotions more ...
Guess i'm the freaking emotional kinda guy ... I can hold emotions pretty well ... but i guesss as much as i can ... my emotions are just sometimes too strong for me to hold down ...
Hmm looking forward to SALT ... hoping Gunang Panti will give me a good chance to retreat to nature and hopefully in its course rejuvanate me !
Gonna see Ivan and Kenny off to South Africa today ... so wanted to go for that course ... but money has proven yet again to be a root problem ... I'm not poor ... but i'm not rich .... I suppose like my day say ... this is the worse position to be in ... No ones gonna take pity on you ... Yet envy is gonna be on ur mind all the time coz you haven't suffered enough to understand what is truely being poor ...

Quote of the day : "If the lord brings U to it ... He'll Bring u Through it" --- Anomynous
Note : Hope that is true ...

JUst Read

Heyz ... Its been ages since i last updated yar ? Sorry ... Just been either freaking bz or freaking tired ... *winks* Gonna update as far back as i can remember... Here we go !
Hmm ... After National Day ... the week was pretty hecktic ... What really happened i can't remember ... alot of CCA stuff and recereations due to the lack of lessons ... But nonetheless hecktic ...
That weekend team "Venturejuwana" came back into action finally ... We set off on our recee and retreat which didn't really turn out as much of a retreat ... Programs needs serious revision but we had fun ! :P
We scheduled to meet up at jurong at 10 but er ... sadly i arrived late abt 11 ... BUT Casper arrived only slightly after noon ... so *phew* not the latest yet ! Anywayz recee ended up starting 3 hrs behind time ... we set off from Jurong Entertainment Complex to Jurong Green CC where we had some ice cream settled plans for the area and headed off to Bukit Timah ...
Bukit Timah was an interesting hike ... Been awhile since any of us did hiking ... Nxt stop ARC at Camp David ... Then was the long ride down to Fort Canning (which we missed a stop) and our final stop before campsite ... Sunplaza Park (not at sembawang but at tampines) ... That was a long stop ... took us forever before we decided on the games at that stop ... Then of coz my favourite part ... Dinner (Which cut into supper) at changi village ! Had everything nice on our table and we sorta shared everthing :P so hehe ! Had meeting till 3 after dinner ... Became buffet for mosquitoes till 8 after that ... and breakfast at changi village ...
Finally was off to ubin !
Week after was basically study study study ... gotta go !

National Day !

Today is the 9th of August 2004 ... 39th years since the independance of Singapore as a Republic ! To greater prosperity , peace and harmony ! Singapore I give my best wishes !
*Salutes to Singapore Flag*
*Nation Anthem Plays*
The day has been fine ... woke up bright and early ... had garlic bread for breakfast ... followed by watching plenty of TV shows till early afternoons =p
Went out to chill with shahid for the rest of the day ... Wanted to go to the gym but it was closed so we went to watch mean girls (good show ! But the others in the threatre just couldn't appreciate the subtle jokes and deliberate puns ... Singaporeans ... *shakes head*) . Then we did some window shopping ... Went to his house after that and watched NDP and the fireworks display from his place ... Its was splendid but not as spectacular as the fireworks i watched the day before =p After which we sat down and watched Singapore Idol and that was definately a good laugh ! All sorts of weird people went for auditions , nerds to flashers to people with big ego and attitude problems to shy unaudiable and even emotional ... Singaporeans never cease to amaze me ... (or perhaps amuse is a better word) Btw ... I'm 100% Singapore made too but just that some Singaporeans ... or rather most ... are just like that ...
Hanged around his place and chatted with his family for awhile after the show while playing connect 4 with him till abt 10 30 before i decided it was time to go home ...
That very much concluded the day for me =)
Time to go to bed ...

Quote of the day : "All religions state that GOD is Compassion ... GOD is Love"---Indiana Jones (Young Indiana Jones---The Movie)

Happy National Day Singapore !

Okie had a great day ... Spent the morning chilling out ... Simple breakfast ? lunch ? brunch ? I don't know ... Anywayz basically a simple meal with jess at delifrance ... Had a nice conversation while we were at it ... =)
Later went to the library for about an hour while waiting for time to past ... Read a really interesting book entitled "Biorythms-A step by step guide" ... It was on the 3 major rythms that governed the performance of the person in a typical day ... The 23-day-cycle physical rythm which governs the physical performance of a person ... The 26-day-cycle emotional rythm which governs the social and mood aspect of a person ... The 33-day-cycle intelligence rythm which governs the mental performance of the person ... Shall try it out and see how well it works :P
Met jess again after that and headed down to city hall to meet the class for the fireworks display ... Everyone was late with exception of chippy and amy ;p ... Sorry u 2
Amazingly ... Most of the class turned up for the event ... And even more amazingly we all managed to squeeze through to the same spot before the fireworks display ended ... haha ... heaven smiles upon us this day !


"When you believe ... Miracles can happen"---Theorem of Le FoX


Well thats so much for actions of the day ... Now for the thoughts of the day ... Had been trying to avoid thinking about some stuff for awhile now ... Hoping that i would be able to be contented with simply being friends with her ... Apparently, it doesn't work out ... Questions i keep asking myself "How much do i really like her ? Is she really worth all the effort ? Is the feeling mutual ? Does she like me ? Does she know I still like her ? Do i even stand any chance ..." Maybe i should just give up ... lest i end up with another joyce ... a love that due to my persistance not only lost but blocked my existance out of her life ... Somebody tell me what i can do ... "The ONLY Real Mistake is the one you Learned NOTHING from" Maybe just maybe ... i should really learn from that last mistake ... before it becomes A REAL MISTAKE I will regret making ... After all "like does not equate with love" Yet ... I know i will regret giving up now ... "A journey of a thousand mile starts with a single step" ... I need to know if this is ever meant to be ...

Stressed Out ...

*Sigh* ... Come Tml First test (first official written test anywayz) for this semester and after 1 and a half day or so of mugging ... I can hardly understand anything ! Even though i didn't quite listen to lectures and i don't like the lecturer ... reading the notes should had at least gave me some assurable form of confidence to take this paper ... SHOULD ... But it isn't ... This isn't good ... Its never happened before ... Will i pull through ? What will i do ... SAVE ME ! SOMEBODY ... ANYBODY ! ARGHZ ... Stressed ... -_- "
*looks into the heavens* save me ... please ?
*sighs..............................................................*

Quote of the day: "It is better to deserve honour and not get them Than to get honour and not deserve them" --- Mark Twain
Point To Ponder: "There is no point working hard ... When you don't believe in yourself"

Tired ~~~~

Hmm ... Tired ... Real damn tired ... been awhile since i had fencing trgs due to various competitions and stuff ... For that matter ... actually been slacking on trgs of any sort ... lol !
Still aching all over today and hence skipped OB trg ... wondering if i should attend tml's fencing trg ... hmm ...
=) In anycase ... Common tests are coming up ... INstrumentations (which after some revision still got little idea what its about) ... Cell Culture (which can potentially give me a headache) ... Arghz ... guess this weekend would be quite a busy one -_-
On a lighter note ... Over head this conversation (not on purpose but he was just so loud)
Bus Driver: (in hokkien) Kids nowadays ! Hugging and kissing all over the place ...
Another Driver: (in hokkien) Its normal ... Things have changed !
Bus Driver: (in hokkien) I know ! (getting agitated) But Indian guy and chinese girl !
Another Driver: (gives no big reaction)
Bus Driver: (in hokkien) What are they thinking ! Black skin and white skin !
Another Driver: (laughs)
Bus Driver: (Drives off uttering something) ....

Quote of the day: "The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing" --- John Powell 

Interesting Quiz :


Which Naruto Character are You?
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Pizza Anyone ?

Hello ! Home from sch ... Been a long long long day ... Woke up early had breakfast with grandma [something i haven't done for ages] =) Met up with sista and kiddo for lunch at canteen 1 and headed off to lecture ...
Lecture on ABC was quite a load today ... Btw ABC isn't anything like ABC ... its something more chiem ... Analytical BioChemistry to be exact ... Anywayz ... Got a paper on monday ... Instrumentation ... a really dry subject with an old crack pot who tells weird jokes that are hardly jokes ... -_-" Been 1 month already and all i know abt that module is perhaps E=A/B*C (where B is ALWAYS 1 !)
Anywayz ... Had a long break till 5 which i took to do my lab reports ... not very productive but what the heck ... my lab partner has been acting pretty weird lately ... wonder why ... Hope he gets back to normal soon enough ...
Napfa Trg followed ... wasn't that bad ... Shao Bin treated all of us to dinner afterwhich :P Pizza ! Hadn't had that for ages ! haha ... didn't even get him anything ... would had if he explained it was his bday though ... anywayz ... see what i can get him soon ...
Ritez ... its way past 1 am i should be slping lest tml end up in another lab accident ! 
Till the nxt update ... Gd Nite   

Interesting things abt life ...

Interesting isn't it ? How u can fall in love with someone ... go through the whole courting process ... get attached ... break up and never forget them ... while they can so easily forget u ? Ha ... Or perhaps its just an assumption ?
Anywayz ... I think i'll leave the relationships aside ... Always gets on my nerves never seems to work out for me =( don't know why ... Heck ! :P
So life going on well ... Semesters started a whole month now ... though i'm still very much lost with academic work ... i suppose my CCAs are going on pretty okie ... Need to relook my priorities !
Not much to update ... or perhaps too much that i know not where to start ? Shall look into more constant updating ... Till then ... This is all i can say ?

A Prayer ? Or Perhaps A Poem ?

O'Lord ... Heavenly Father !
Heed my cry ...
Tis Lost sheep seeks a guide...
Send me a Shepard and Shine Thy guiding Light !

O'Lord of mercy ... God of grace ...
Will thee not have pity upon my soul ?
Shine me a path which in these dark uncertain times ...
Bestow upon Tis Lost Sheep Thy holy guide ...

O'Lord ... Heavenly Father ...
Where seen thee a son without curiousity ?
You granted the gift of choice ...
I've chose to seek my own ways of life ...

Yet Father I seek you in times so dire ...
In times so Lost ... because ...
I tread a path so far yet so close to yours ...
I seek a path uniquely mine yet within Thy holy guide ...

Many trials had I to face …
Many times had I thy name refuse …
Lord in Thee I have my faith …
But not Lores so said ye imposed …

O’Lord … Heavenly Father …
I pray thee … Heed My Cry !
Shed Thy holy light Upon tis Lost little sheep …
One who seeks a relationship close to thee yet far from thy call …

Amen


Simon Soh
June 04

I SEEK Peace ...

Hello ... Been Freaking busy these days ... Alot of work and assignments to keep me physically and mentally stretched ... With the ever existing toll of things to think about ... I don't know how much longer i can hold myself together ...
Thankfully to the late events ... Hope has been building ... I've tried to put most my problems to a rest ... Expressed what i need to the gal i like ... The one i loved seems had given me reasons enough to end my wait with no regrets ... A huge change in character and a determination to avoid me is undoubted ... If that is the case ... I fear I've no choice but to put that friendship to an end ... a sad resolution but one without choice ... Yet when i thought i'm finally going to hit the compensation point where i'll finally be at mind and heart's peace ... There comes the problems faced by my friends ... Is there never going to be an end to all these problems ? Will i never rest in peace ? When ? When ? When ! Will the time come where I'll gain what i seek ...

Quote of the day: "The Magnitude Of a Commander, Is Not Measured By How Many Victories He Leads His Men To ... But How Many Men He Leads Home"

Something I Did ... Interesting Worth A Try ...

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Er ... Home Again ? Or perhaps NOT ?

HaHa Noticed that i've been here and there alot but never home these days ... just got home from LSCT FOC Trial Camp ... Well ... I won't say its bad but it ain't nothing too good either ... Think the GLs gotta work like A WHOLE lot more on our team spirit and unity ... Okie maybe lets not talk abt unity but co-ordination has to get going ... -_-"
Its not that i don't wanna be proud being a Life Science GL but ... the feeling just isn't right ...
Anywayz ... SYF wasn't that bad all together ... got me into the memorable old days feeling :P Think i'll end up enjoying SYF after all ... Ritez ... Another camp coming up Pierce Secondary Sch ... Wonder how it'll be like ... 1st camp as a full fledge Instructor ... Hope i won't screw up ... ;) Pray Hard for me people :)

Quote of the Day: "Its Not abt Winning ... Its abt How U Win"---Theorem of Le FoX

Lack in Cash !

Heyz ... Well these days i've been damn slack ... wake up late ... slp late ... haha
My days consist of either going out to chill over lunch dinner brunch supper or someother meals ... Been sitting ard doing nothing much ... Or i'll be at home infront of my computer fairylanding or just chatting ... Sick life for a holiday haha !
Well today went out with shahid for a nice meal at sakura halal thai crusine ... Great meal :) But damn ex ... arghz ...
Hmm ... Weds will be day 1 of SYF trg ! :) Not feeling anything abt it yet ... don't know why also ... Haven't been very high for awhile ... not getting enough ups in life to cover for all those downfalls i've been having ... and the downfalls still adding up ... Hope something good happens soon ... i'm dying ...
Talking abt Cash ... running low on money liaoz ... but no jobs ! haiz ... sad ...
Find today's entry very jumbled up ? I guess thats how i feel inside ... random thoughts here and there nothing solid to work on ... when ? when ? when will the time come where i'll be lifted from all this torment ?

Quote of the day: "Drifters live in hell ... heaven is for those who steer"---Theorem of Le FoX (Taken off a book read today)
Bonus Quote: "Things don't just happen ... U've gotta make them happen"---Theorem of Le FoX (Inspired by the same book)

Home Again ...

Hello Peoplez !
Once again I return ... Class chalet is over ... Had a wonderful time with those that were present ... A nice BBQ and two nites of fun at Aranda Country Club Resorts ...
Lacks the beachy fun ... but had lots of fun indoors anywayz :P
I must say ... Its the first time for alot of things ... First time at such a nice suite for a chalet ... First time spending almost the entire time indoors for a chalet ... First time i see people buy rice for chalet -_-" and such
But it was all good :) Spent most of the time talking or playing on the PS II andrew brought with him ... Then theres the perpetually popular Dai Dee , Uno , Monopoly and something that seems to have become a class tradition ... BOOM-O !
Learnt alot abt some people and spent lots of time thinking of my own pursuits ... But to no avail ... Still wondering what to do ... *Thinking Hard*
OH yesh ... theres still venturejuwana comm. reccee cum retreat scheduled for first weekends after the holidays ... Can't wait for that one :P

Quote of the Day: "Never Regret what u've done ... Regret what nv did ..."---Theorem Of LeFoX
Movie Quote: "Immortality ! Take It ! Its Yours !"---Archilles of Greece
"Is there NO ONE ELSE ... IS THERE NO ONE ELSE !"---Archilles of Greece

Home From Camp !

Hello Cyber World ! Hello people ! I'm home once again ... 4 days without the comp ... not exactly very bad ... but always good to have the computer ard :p
Camp was good though not the way we hoped it to be but nonetheless it ended up well :)
Turned out more chalet than training ... guess gotta revise on that part ... But heck first camp organized by NP Fencing so didn't expect much ...
First day was pretty slack ... Booked in abt 10 it started raining ... then we chilled out till abt 2 ... Lunch wasn't that bad but seriously it sucks ... Had training till abt 7 then we had dinner ... chilled out in the room ... Jeff was entertaining us with some music ... Then later we had some card games ... Till abt 12 ... Thats abt when our "Prata Fairy" convinced the president to let us out of campus for supper at Al Ameen where we met this staff there who is a living calculator ! "2 dollar ... 2 dollar ... 4 Dollars !" LoL
The following day was sentosa ! spent most parts of the day enjoying the time on sentosa ... training wasn't much there ... Most of us got burnt which obviously isn't good coz we're to be fencing a mini competition back in sch the following days ...
The night activities are roughly the same every night... Then the following days consisted main of the polls and DEs ... which i lost all my bulks ... -_-" muz train liaoz ...
Damn i'm tired ... OKie shall end off here !
Quote of the day: "Immortality! Take It!! Its Yours!!!"--- Troy the movie

Surprize ! Surprize !

Ritez ... Decided to pop by and update alittle before Fencing Camp which start at 10 00 Hours Today ... And Guess wad ... Blogger has a new look and system ! Freak ... Luckly i can still navigate :P
So Whats new ? Nothing much ... WAtch Van Helsing with Shahid and Raccoon ... Then Yesterday went to buy hammock and jungle hat ... But after that it was fun :P
Went to Daffy's ... Daffy , Jing and their friend Ai Ling was cooking lunch :P Invited me over to try out their cookings :P Great meal ! hehe Brought Kitty along to Try out thier cooking with me and WOW ! Those gals can cook ! Spagetti ... Fish Pie ... Soup ! *whistles* :P Thankz gals !
Then there was the monopoly game ! I lost ... but it was fun :P

Quote of the day : "If u wanna kill someone Do it Quick ... Don' talk too much !"---Theorem of Le FoX (Quoted Van Helsing)
Bonus Logic: (ALso from Van Helsing by the friar) Friars CAN DO WHAT THEY LIKE :P They are not priest !

Couple of Hours to End of Exams !

HEllo ... thought i drop by to leave a few words before i go for my IPC which is at 09 00 hrs 8th May 2004 ....
Done all my revision work ... feeling really low ... no confidence at all ... Pray hard for me people ! Anywayz ... 1R05 gonna have my name in there somewhere liao i suppose ... so heck !
Okiez ... Thats abt it for now ! =P Ciao ~

Quote of the day : "Good night, good night! Parting is such sweet sorrow. That I shall say good night till it be morrow." --- Quote from Shakespear's R&J

A blast from the past ?

Seriously ... I don't know what to put up here these days ... Its always wake up study ... rest and study then u know the rest ... OH well ... Anywayz i did take a trip to YCK Gym with shahid today ... met my uncle there ... *weird* never crossed my mind he is the gym kinda guy *rolls eyes in thought* .....
Heck ... people won't think i'm the gym kinda guy either ... haha ! >p
Back in sec 4 after i was FORCED to drop A Maths (Not that i like any kinda Maths) .... I took deep interest in poetry ... a couple of reasons ... <1> I'm a literature student (what more can u expect ?) <2> My class was crazy over poetry (Only Pure Lit class -_-") <3> I was in love =P
Oh well ... chanced upon one of my works back then today while packing up some stuff ... so decided i'll put it up ... Enjoy =)


Love …

Always had I wondered,
What is this mysterious strength?
For ages had men pondered,
How it last for such eternal length?

Indeed it holds much mystery
Though older than time it could be
Love to now is yet defined clearly
By any man to me

Love so said to be
By my mother once to me
Is her unconditioned care,
For me, for eternity.

Yet there was once this priest,
Who claim love to be a gift from HE,
HE who had been said to be,
The one who created you and me.

All this claims,
Are true as can be.
Yet it confuses me
Till this day …

Yes today, this very day,
Even as I proclaim my love to thee.
And define it to be
My undying crave to be with ye.

Simon Soh
2002


Quote of the Day "|oVe is like the wind , it is felt Not SeeN NoR HeArD ..."---Theorem of Le FoX (abstracted from "A Walk To Remember")

Major Sianzation ...

Haiz ... Hello i suppose ...
A little down today ... Been working hard on maths ... Took maths papers today ... but ended not enough time to finish ... haiz ... guess i'm gonna fail ... lost 39/40 marks due to time and my incompetence in maths ...
OH yar ... Laptop adaptor burnt out ... so haven't been able to update ...
Anywayz ... the day wasn't that bad apart from maths paper ... Went for a swim with jess jia and dwright after the paper ... swimming and chilling for abt an hour or so in that pool sort took the loads of my mind for abit... just floating ard in that anti-gravitic enviroment really takes the toll off one's mind body and soul ... =) Love swimming but ngee ann pool abit too alkaline ? I don't know ... soapy la ...
However, I think i might go back to my coach ... go apply for my Award Distinction in Lifesaving techniques ....
Well ... That'll be abt it for now ... Take care folks ...

What kinda fencer are u ?

Well ... Been out all day studying and I must say ... Woodlands Regional Library is a real hot place to study ... It opens at 12 but by 11 there are plenty of people jammed at its gates waiting ...
Anywayz took this quiz which i find darn inaccurate ... I'm a sabere lor ! Say i'm a foilist -_- " ... or perhaps i'm better off a foilist ... Hmmm...

This is wad i got :

You are a foil fencer. Foil is a weapon of calculation and passion. You glide easily between attack and defense. You can flick to the back or thrust to the chest. What Kind of Fencer Are You?

This is more like wad I'm supposed to get (or I'd like to get):

You are a sabre fencer. Sabre is a weapon of explosiveness and brawn. You are almost always on the offense. You can score touches by thrusting or cutting. What Kind of Fencer Are You?

Oh well ... Leave it be =P Just another quiz
Going back to study now =( Stupid maths ... Never liked it Never will ... But nonetheless ... I'll pull through =) Today's quote was given to me by my "lil' kitten" ... Enjoy

Quote of the day: "STRESSED is just DESSERTS speLled bAckwArds"----Theorem of Le FoX (Quote Provided by YeeWen)

Hello

Not much to share today ... Feeling hopeless ... Tried to study maths but didn't work out ... Went to the gym with shahid and then had dinner out again ... gonna be damn broke ~~~ haiz ...
Well ... First aid course is in a mess and i've much more others to plan too ... lacking in participation ... Anyone interested ? 21st-23rd of June 2004 ? Ngee Ann Students get subsidy =P Give me a call ya ... 91009518 (any prank callers will suffer the wrath of LeFoX... I mean it ... Not in a good mood)
Heres a little poem i find really meaningful perhaps at times i feel the same way...


The Greatest Pain In Life

The greatest pain in life is not to die,
but to be ignored.


To lose the person you love so
much to another who doesn't care at all.


To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
and not tell you about it.


When your favorite person on earth
neglects to invite you to his graduation.


To have people think that you don't care.


The greatest pain in life,
is not to die,
but to be forgotten.


To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.


To never get a call from a friend,
just saying "hi".


When you show someone your innermost thoughts and they laugh in your face.


For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.


When it seems like the only person who cares about you,
is you.


Life is full of pain,
but does it ever get better?


Will people ever care about each other,
and make time for those who are in need?


Each of us has a part to play
in this great show we call life.


Each of us has a duty to mankind
to tell our friends we love them.


If you do not care about your friends
you will not be punished.


You will simply be ignored...
forgotten...
as you have done to others.


Quote of the day: "The worse way to miss anyone is to be right nxt to him/her knowing you can't have his/her heart"---Theorem of Le FoX

Amazing !

Yesh ! End of practical exams ! Muhahahaha ~~~ *evil laughter* =P
Lets work backwards today ... =D
The day ended well ... dinner with my "brother", Bevan. This is another guy who has been through alot with me =) All the way from that fateful day in the science lab when we were in sec 1 ... Buddies to Brother ... this is one of those family friends of mine ... everyone in the family knows him and mum is very fond of him ... -_-" *jealous*
Ah yesh ... Studied after MicroBio Practs with Jessie ... Simon ... Huiz and Zhen You ...
MB pract was a killer ! Stupid Gram -ve stain ... i can't see nothing on that damn slide ... so i wrote *colour appreciation deficiency* at the corner of the paper and handed it up ...
Yesterday was good ... Dinner with Cpt Oh ... David and Kiddo ... Lots of laughs
Free Fenced and got injured but it was fun and destressing (not that i really needed to destress but ... =P)
Went to book the chalet for the class ... long trip but was cool ...
Last tennis session ... It was cool but i fear there is much to learn abt tennis ... same goes to fencing *lol*
Okie so much for working backwards *sweat* hardwork man ~~ But fun =P nxt time perhaps I'll do it again
Ritez ... the title ... Amazing how many people actually reads this blogsite ! I'm stunned ... and so many who actually knows me ... god ... and i don't even publicise it ... anywayz ... people ... plz ar ... wad i write is wad i feel ... don't come and condem be horz ... disclaimer already states read at ur own risk =P Anywayz those who has left comments thankz ! really touched ... =D Someone came to me lately with reference to my entry on AGM again ... got me to think ... and answer is YES i want to make myself known and i do wanna do something great ... YES u can say i was dying for a position with NPOB ... But no ... i don't do things without thinking ... everything i do i do for/with a cause !

Quote of the day: "One destination, Many approaches, One goal Diversity of experiences"---Theorem of Le FoX

Broke in more than one way

Hello ~ Not really in top mood tonite ... Decided to pop by and pour out some of my problems so i don't have to feel so alone ... Hate handling problems alone though more than often i've come to not only learn but grown accustomed to do so ...
Well ... As suggested Broke in more than one ways ... To start with i'm literally BROKE ... running low on fundings ... esp with so much activities in May ... hope i'll get some assignments for June at least can make some cash =P
Then i've broke my promise to myself ... To strive for academic excellence this semester ... NOT working out ... Gotta work harder ... Also another promise broken to oneself ... wanted to get fitter ... but not working hard enough to do so ...
Broken hearted once again ... same girl ... i wonder why i just can't let the past go and move on ... I really like to know why I simply cannot forget her ... well guess wad ... she was back from Tasamania for abt 10 days ... as much as i suspected from her unusual hours online of late ... but she didn't bother to even say hi when she saw me online ... when i actually msg her, she could give me no more than cold short replies ... so once again ... if so ... why does it still hurt so much ... for someone who feels nothing more for me ... how issit i can feel so much for ! ArgHz ! SICK !!!
Brusting brain cells ... Well ... talking abt moving on ... I've been thinking hard abt someone and whether i should really move in & give it a try ... But too many factors really linger within my thoughts ... Would she like me ? Do i have enough points for anyone to like me enough to want to be with me ? Do i still have the capacity to truely love ? What if she doesn't like me ? How would i react ? Wad if ... There is just too much to think abt ... too much to lose ... too much to sacrifice ... too much at risk ... But the question now should be ... Do i have the guts to give myself the chance to find the answers to all these question ?
OH ya ... the chatter box seems to be giving me some funny technical problems ... Too lazy to fix it ... Too stressed perhaps ... Or perhaps i just can't be bothered anymore ... Someone once told me ... everybody got their ups and downs ... well i say i'm getting too many downs and not enough ups ... Damn ~ where comes justice and balance ? wherefore does the gods pitch me in such torments ? how am i to put faith in any god when my life is in such a state ? Damn the devil ... true ... yet no god has came in my times of need to show me mercy nor give me aid ... Has the heaven earth and hell forsaken me ? Is there no one who is so benovelent to lend a hand to poor me ?
*looks into the stars*
Even so the FoX will survive ... I'll pull through ... I always DO ... Just Watch Me ...

Happy Bday Hui Hui !

Heyz ! Been away for awhile ... pretty bz ... been home late the couple of days ... What have i been up to ? Heres an update :
-GL trainings
-Matriculation Booth Duty (LSCT and OB)
-Fencing trainings
-Fencing Camp Planning
-Venturejuwana Planning
Well ... hmm ... haven't been scoring in tests that i've taken ... expected for maths ... but for MB i'm pretty disappointed ... Gotta work hard soon =(
Anywayz ... Thursday was Hui Hui's bday ... but we only celebrated it today together with DJ's ... supposed to celebrate at crystal jade ... but i was late due to a meeting with Cpt Oh (fencing SDO) ... But managed to meet up with the main group after lunch and bowled a couple of rounds at marina followed by dinner at BK and a movie. "Into the Mirror" great show muz watch =P took us like forever just to pyscho Hui to watch it ! hehe ... Long day but it was fun !

Easter Day !

YoZ ! Happy Easter people ! Now ... first to clearify i always had this concept that Easter is the Sunday after Good Friday ... But someone told me that Easter IS Good Friday ... I don't know (can someone plz clearify?)... Anywayz Happy Easter !
Well ... Friday was good ... Saturday ... Well ... IAC presentation which i conviently used the "smoke screen" technique to get through went real well =P But i guess abit too much of that cause a headache which saw me flying home dizzy ...
But got better in the evening and a good thing i did =P Met up with shahid, my "brother" through joys and cries ... This is one guy i could had known since primary 4 but i never did till sec 1 ... NPCC squadmate ... fellow Student Councillor and a friend through and through ... We went to sim lim tower to get some stuff for his engineering project ... Followed by dinner at Apollo Banana Leaf =P Great dinner indeed ... Had a nice long talk all the way through =) Always enjoy his company though at times we don't really talk haha !
Today wasn't much woke up ... supposed to meet my classmates to book a chalet but cancelled last minute... So went to try putting on contact lenses AGAIN ... gave up after 2 hrs ... came home ... did some revision ... but nothing seems to had gotten in ... went online ... saw joyce online ... didn't bother to say hi ... don't know why but it seems like up till now i'm either not forgiven (for a crime i know not wad) or she just feels too awkard to speak to me ...
Oh well ... Upcoming week is gonna be a killer .... IPC theory ... IPC practical ... SN partical ... alot of test ... -_-" better get going ...
Au Revour Monaime

Passion of Christ

Hello Hello =) Today is Good Friday ... and i must say indeed a very good good friday for yours truely =P Lets talk abit about my day shall we ? =)
Started my day a wake up call from Jessie ... which i sorta woke up answered and went rite back to sleep ... Sorry Jess ... Okie supposed to meet her but I suppose her sis and friends got fed up with waiting for me so they left =( Sorry again ...
Anywayz found my way to sch ... Enjoyed a little game of badminton with Jess Lix Uncle D and some of their friends ... Got to know some new peeps and had some fun good deal =P
Sadly didn't get to stay in game for long ... had to rush for a movie "The Passion Of The Christ" by Mel Gibson ... Glad i went for it ... Great show ! effects were so realistic and every scene u can actually feel for the actor ... wow ... the director the makeup artist the creative director whoever took part in making this film come to screen are great i tell u ! Must watch ! Oh and i must thank Jia for the free tickets from her friend's church =P Thanks kiddo !
Following that was dinner @ pastamania with Jess Hui and Eugene ... Then we headed for Trinity Christian Centre where we enjoyed a short musical called ... erm ... "Caught , Not in the act" ... touching tale of this guy who gave up everything even his life for his adopted brother ... Courage indeed ... Sadly just a show =(
Well so then comes Pastor Dennis who tried to get me to "accept christ" as he puts it ... at first i was merely entertaining him while waiting for hui who has actually accepted christ and went for some proceedure of registration ? i'm not sure ... But as our converstaion developed ... we went into a whole series of discussions and such ... i'll skip the details but we end with him inviting me to a workshop "defending your faith" where he'll answer all the tough questions with logical and acceptable facts ... which i promised him i'll attend and if he can by then convince me i'll accept christ =P
Thats abt that time to rush my IAC ... -_-"

Speak the Unspoken pain ...

HIz ... Once again i come to realise there are people who actually come read my blog ... -_-"
First thing thanks people for bothering to read the bloggie and thanks for all the encouragement and stuff with reference to my previous entry =) Always nice to know you lot care
Ritez ... Some have came read and told me to remove that last entry ... Others felt that I have every right to put up whatever i want to on my blog ... I have been considering all these points and never came through with a sound decision yet ... Guess i'll keep it here for awhile =) Sorry to disappoint those who expects me to remove it
I know many find that i was too harsh with my words but dissappointment when you put in effort deals great damage to one ... especially for a slacker like myself who don't really put effort in many things ...
Hmm ... life goes on ... alot to think abt ... maths being top on the list of concerns ... exams are going to flood me real soon ... been very slack eversince AGM ... no drive to serve commitment to any of my CCAs ... not studying at home either ... just been very very slack ... A few consolations to myself ... at the very least i've still been able to drag myself to every class ... and i've been jogging =)
Big things in my life of late ?
Well ... 1 thing would be the matters of the heart ... been thinking alot abt moving on ... great times with joyce stills lingers deep within me ... but our break up and the conseqences i faced ... the pain ... that too habours in my mind everytime i want to move on ... there is someone i want to try out ... but there is too much to lose and Fear holds me back ...
2nd thing would be something that would be rather on going for awhile ... "Venturejuwana --- Age Old Addiction to Adventure" This is one of the projects i took up along with brian ... I'll talk more abt it another day perhaps ... But basically its a camp for youths ... been working on it for awhile now ... abt a month ...
Well ... i'm blogging today ... for those who has been following ... you maybe looking for something extreme from me again ... but well not today ... just bored ...

Ngee Ann Outward Bounders Annual General Meeting

Hello ... knowing me ... updating out of nowhere means something extreme muz have happened ... so to those looking for something nice today isn't the good extremity ... so you've been warned ...
Well AGM is finally here ... working hard whole year long just to make it to the commitee and show some worth. Thought getting in the comm would be something to finally boost my morale a little from all those drawbacks last year ... but guess wad ... I lost yet again ... losing is one thing ... losing to people i deem myself as more competent to is a totally different story. I don't mind if i didn't make the position because i'm not as competent to fill the post but this ... its absurb ! Commitment ... i've given more time to OB than to myself or anyother thing i've done ! Skills ? I'm better trained ... 4 years in NPCC ... 3 years in the council ... 2 years as a level head ... 1 year as quaters master and chief of safety ! and fuck ... i can't win someone without as much experience or commitment ? I don't know what they are thinking abt !